apotheotic

cross-posted from: https://beehaw.org/post/25587690

...this is not a self-report I swear

Alt text: A cute anime-style character with short pink hair and a cat-like appearance sits happily with eyes closed while a hand pats their head. The character wears a collar with a bell and looks content. Overlaid meme text reads: “SO-CALLED ‘FREE THINKERS’ WHEN” at the top and “WHEN A WOMAN PATS HER LAP AND MAKES SCRITCHING NOISES” at the bottom.

...this is not a self-report I swear

Alt text: A cute anime-style character with short pink hair and a cat-like appearance sits happily with eyes closed while a hand pats their head. The character wears a collar with a bell and looks content. Overlaid meme text reads: “SO-CALLED ‘FREE THINKERS’ WHEN” at the top and “WHEN A WOMAN PATS HER LAP AND MAKES SCRITCHING NOISES” at the bottom.

My endo effectively leaves it up to me whether I start progesterone now, 1.5 years into HRT. What I could find online suggested that starting too early could have negative impact on breast growth, so I said no at this point since I haven't yet seen as much breast growth as I would like.

Should I be starting after 2y? Should I be contacting my endo to change my mind and start now? What's the wisdom?

Went to speak with my GP a number of months ago regarding my troubles with executive dysfunction, time management, and task completion, as well as impulsivity. They referred me to xyla for an ADHD assessment

Went through the assessment process, awaited results

Went to speak to a different GP who has more specialised focus on mental health issues. Explained my issues to her without even alluding to ADHD and she immediately clocked me as being likely to be ADHD. Said basically all the troubles (extending beyond the ones I mentioned here, too) would be at least partly explained by ADHD and getting treated for such would help me. She said we'll wait for the diagnosis

Got the results back today and despite showing high significance on the pre-assessment and the actual assessment, my family informant did not. (I don't feel like any of my family has any idea what my childhood was like for me because whenever I talk about my experiences they tell me "oh I dont remember that, you were always xyz"). So, no ADHD diagnosis.

I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm just sitting here spiralling because as far as they can suggest, all my issues are just because I'm failing to apply myself or some shit. I'm just a failure, not neurodivergent.

I pushed back against their conclusion and they said I can go for a second opinion, but they didn't give me any like... Tools or resources. Like, okay if you don't think its ADHD and you just think I am just like this, what do I do about it. How do I get help. Help me. Please god fucking help me.

(Context, my previous post: https://beehaw.org/post/25032411)

[Alt text for both pics: A selfie of a woman in a black off the shoulder dress and a black ribbon necklace]

Inspired by this post about Vampire The Masquerade

Hey folks, I'm totally new to the whole meshtastic thing, but I checked the coverage in my area and it is basically nonexistent. I'm not primarily interested in using meshtastic myself but I am super into the idea of deploying my own ~~repeater~~ node to expand coverage here for the folks who may want to use it or need to use it.

Does anyone have any recommendations? Ideally it would be solar powered and waterproof so it can be self sufficient out in the elements and just do its thing. Bonus points if it can be used from my phone via bluetooth so I can fiddle around with meshtastic as a user instead of just an extra node in the mesh.

I don't have access to a 3d printer or soldering tools, so I understand that limits the options

Edited to remove use of "repeater" as this has a defined meaning in meshtastic.

Context:

This was a home inspection by a landlord, pets are allowed but the field still exists, and I found this screencap absolutely hilarious

I've found dating apps to be an absolute minefield, regularly getting my profile pictures (very tame and appropriate pictures) reported on HER for example, presumably by transphobes, before I left it.

Beyond that, I feel invisible on the more mainstream apps because I'm ethically nonmonogamous and I suppose that understandably shrinks my dating pool even further.

Does anyone have any app/site suggestions for an ENM lady who is tired of having to fight for my right to exist as a gay woman on a dating app?

A person I've shared circles with and considered a friend for years, today said the quiet part out loud and spouted transphobia.

I feel like I'm experiencing years of retroactive fear for my proximity to her all at once and its incredibly overwhelming.

If anyone has any good vibes to send my way I'd be so grateful.

(Image description: A woman's hand holds a brown gift wrapped package with a picture attached by twine. The picture is of Boromir in the Lord of the Rings, saying "It is a gift".)