Neurodivergence

Went to speak with my GP a number of months ago regarding my troubles with executive dysfunction, time management, and task completion, as well as impulsivity. They referred me to xyla for an ADHD assessment

Went through the assessment process, awaited results

Went to speak to a different GP who has more specialised focus on mental health issues. Explained my issues to her without even alluding to ADHD and she immediately clocked me as being likely to be ADHD. Said basically all the troubles (extending beyond the ones I mentioned here, too) would be at least partly explained by ADHD and getting treated for such would help me. She said we'll wait for the diagnosis

Got the results back today and despite showing high significance on the pre-assessment and the actual assessment, my family informant did not. (I don't feel like any of my family has any idea what my childhood was like for me because whenever I talk about my experiences they tell me "oh I dont remember that, you were always xyz"). So, no ADHD diagnosis.

I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm just sitting here spiralling because as far as they can suggest, all my issues are just because I'm failing to apply myself or some shit. I'm just a failure, not neurodivergent.

I pushed back against their conclusion and they said I can go for a second opinion, but they didn't give me any like... Tools or resources. Like, okay if you don't think its ADHD and you just think I am just like this, what do I do about it. How do I get help. Help me. Please god fucking help me.

Crossposted from https://lemmy.dbzer0.com/post/64470729

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I saw that this app Tiimo won app of the year from Apple. I hadn't heard of it before but it looks pretty nice. Unfortunately, it's iOS/web only so don't work for me on Android. However, I'm curious if folks here have tried it or have other apps they really recommend?

I'm currently straddling between Todoist and CALDav (through nextcloud/tasks.org) but am always looking to explore new tools that might be better at helping me follow up.

Also, I recently read Zen To Done (ZTD), it's like a more applied version of GTD (Getting Things Done) and found it to be pretty helpful. Big takeaway was I could do better at weekly reviews and setting 2-3 most important tasks for the day to make sure I get them done.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tiimo https://www.tiimoapp.com/

TL;DR: ICT treats matter as fixed information, consciousness as the rate of informational change, and time as the structuring of this change. The model unexpectedly drew interest from researchers in information physics (feedback below) and includes three concrete falsifiable experiments.

1. Core Idea

ICT is based on three relations:

A. Matter = fixed information M = I_fixed

B. Consciousness = rate of informational change in time C is proportional to dI/dT (meaning: consciousness grows when informational updates per unit time increase)

C. Reality = interaction of stable and flowing information R = function(I_fixed, dI/dT)

This aligns with:

Landauer’s limit (energy cost of changing information)

Friston’s free-energy principle (entropy/information gradients)

Bekenstein bounds (informational density limits)

integrated-information ideas (but without assuming a biological substrate)

Key shift: Information is not an abstraction — it is the actual substrate of physics.

2. Time as an informational process

In ICT, time is defined as:

“The transition of potential information into structured experience.”

This connects:

subjective/phenomenological time

physical/relativistic time

computational/informational time

Consciousness shapes this transition — creating a local arrow of time through patterns of information change.

3. Experimental roadmap (all falsifiable)

Experiment 1 — C ∝ dI/dT (neuroenergetic test)

Task: multilevel oddball or sequence-learning with strict entropy control. Measurements: EEG or MEG + metabolic markers. Prediction: higher informational update-rate (dI/dT) increases both energetic cost and long-range neural integration.

Experiment 2 — R = f(I) (“structure without energy”)

Equal power input, but different informational structure: compressible vs pseudorandom signals, in sensory streams or light patterns. Prediction: informational form changes neural / behavioral / physical outcomes, even when energy is identical.

Experiment 3 — M = I_fixed (energy of fixation)

Measure energy thresholds for stable information across substrates: DRAM, Flash, PCM/memristors, spintronics, and possibly neural cultures. Prediction: matter behaves as stabilized information with substrate-dependent fixation thresholds.

4. External feedback

A researcher specializing in information physics and the nature of time — background:

MSU’s “Institute for Time Nature Explorations”

electrical engineering

information science

systemic research

interdisciplinary time studies

left a detailed review on Academia.edu.

Key excerpts:

"The author proposes an interesting approach to the relationship between matter, consciousness and information, incorporating the complex concept of time."

"'Matter as fixed information' opens a path toward an information physics of consciousness."

"The experimental framework is clear and promising."

— Irina L. Zerchaninova, researcher in information physics & time studies

5. Why posting on Beehaw

ICT sits at the intersection of:

physics

computation

information theory

philosophy of mind

AGI research

This is an early-stage but testable model. Technical critique is welcome.

Links

Preprint (equations + experimental criteria): https://www.academia.edu/s/8924eff666

Main publication (open access): https://doi.org/10.5281/zenodo.17584783

PDF: https://www.academia.edu/144946662

I'm so high I managed to make myself a cup of tea without spilling any tea leaves or water. And after realizing the immense amount of concentration that took that I could only achieve while high, I think I can safely give up on the idea of not being messy someday.

This is a change.org petition

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Darius_McCollum

The tldr for this is that basically this guy is autistic and has been fixated on subway trains to the extent that he learned how to operate them before the age of 15 and was taken advantage of by subway operators who didn't want to work their shift for whatever reasons and was allowed by them to operate the train.

He was arrested for it and because of that arrest he can't be a subway operator.

All the dude wants to do is operate a train. That's it. That's his only goal in life.

Full petition text

The Issue

Darius McCollum is a 58-year-old Black man with autism. As a little boy, he was obsessed with trains, and he would hide in the NYC subway system. Transit employees gave him keys and taught him how to operate trains, starting when he was 9 years old. Eventually, Darius began taking over shifts for employees, and would take subway trains on scheduled routes. At 15, Darius was arrested for operating a subway for an employee who had Darius cover their shift. Darius never told anyone how he knew how to operate trains because he didn't want to betray his “friends” who were having a child with autism take over their shifts.

That arrest on his record made it impossible for him to do the only thing he loves to do- work for the NYC transit system. But he continued to operate trains and buses for his transit employee “friends” who took advantage of his disability. He continued to get arrested, spending years in abusive prisons that were not equipped to handle him. He never hurt anyone and never damaged any property- he usually took the vehicles on scheduled trips in place of employees, and always returned the vehicles.

Two years ago, a judge ruled that Darius is “dangerously mentally ill” and he is now locked away indefinitely at a state asylum for the criminally insane, with the most violent and unstable inmates. Darius is not, has never been, and will never be, dangerous, nor is he mentally ill. He has a disability.

We demand NYS Attorney General Letitia James realize Darius is not dangerous, and stop keeping him locked up with violent inmates.

Hey all, I'm trying really hard to get better at playing the piano, but it has always been difficult for me. I end up relying way too much on my ear and muscle memory, which gets me fairly far, but then I get lost in my own thoughts and have no idea where I am / how to recover if I make a mistake. It feels like the better I get at playing something, the more susceptible I am to completely biffing it because I got there by relying on my crutches instead of actually processing it the way (I think?) it's supposed to be learned, if that makes sense. I can read music and all that, but between the attention span and the hand eye coordination issues, I start to glaze over the actual notes on the page. Any good pianists with ADHD? Any tips? I know slow and steady is the main thing, but the glazing over makes that so hard to manage. Maybe I just need to accept that this will always be difficult for me, but I would love to hear others' perspectives. (Also this community seems pretty dead, so if there are any more active non-meme ADHD communities that Beehaw federates with, please point me in the right direction!)

Just because he thinks it is that way, it has to be the truth. No proof necessary. 🫠

The words "building spaces for autistic people" over a castle background. There are bookshelves in the corners and candles on the floor and a window in the middle. In the top right there is an autistic pride flag of 5 different colors.

It was bad enough at 21 to learn that my birth father was an alcoholic. You know, after the first suicide attempt.

I'm not going to claim alcoholism was directly related to how I turned out, given plenty of childhood abuse (not from my parents, thankfully).

I ran into a Dave's Garage video a couple of days ago about how he learned in middle age that he was on the spectrum, leading me to look into online tests, as what he was describing sounded awfully familiar.

Let's just say that after a day of research, while I rub my fingers back and forth along Snoopy's ear, as I did as a toddler, it started looking more apparent that my poor (relatively) social skills may bring out the need for some red yarn.

I'm in the market for solutions, not further problems.

By raminazer

cross-posted from: https://beehaw.org/post/21033066

In which Mars-in-Theory🦋 goes into how 'common sense' and similar discussion terminating cliches are fascist and merely exist to maintain and prop up the status quo.