ApathyTree

While I still don't know what that thing is, this is much better. The edit makes it look like some VR headset holder or something.

Yeah, thats exactly what i want to avoid, things that are good enough that even without being addictive, i want them. I wont even grow poppies for poppy tea because I’m afraid i will become low-grade addicted to it as a result of simply not being in constant pain for a change (fucked up thing to consider, but true as someone with chronic pain). My mom made me promise to keep her oxy after she passed because it was much harder for me to get pain treatment than it should be, but it just made me throw up (same it did to her, but we assumed it was the cancer), so i gave it to a friend who needed it. I know myself and i -really- like escape. It used to be books, as a kid, but now its all sorts of things. Because i can.

Mostly i want things with low addiction (physical or psychological) risk, ideally also somewhat beneficial, and no or very low chance of bad experience, because my brain does that anyway. Also kinda has to be fairly easy to get without a shady middle-man, because i don’t know people and buying shit on tor isn't appealing to me at all. The hardest thing I've done was extacy cut with meth, and i listened to my druggy ex and boofed it (our slang for bum-hole administration, tho i learned later i should have shoved it in my vagina instead, thats way way better for drug absorption due to the sheer quantity of blood vessels and the moist environment, to the point that it used to he a common medical application in hospital). Honestly, i loved it, and would exist that way forever if i could. And thats the problem. I’m glad i don't have easy access to it now. Id like to use it again in controlled therapy settings, as long as they’ve got some good beats and highlighters on hand. But as a result of using it, techno gives me anxiety now. Used to really love it. So even in mild ways the best of things can fuck with you.

I don't really struggle with drugs other than alcohol (and thats a weird one because i just fall out of use, same as weed, after months or years of heavy use), but thats mostly because i don't use anything else particularly addictive because i don't trust myself. Actually, because i know what I’d do. I seem to fall out of alcohol use when my mental state improves to the point i don't need a crutch. But until then, its bad. Ngl. And weed just stops being fun periodically, so sometimes i take years-long breaks even though it’s good for my pain.

Im super interested in drugs, though. Like genuinely id love to try them all with no risk. I used to read bluelight just to imagine how it felt. I want VR to work for me because that feels like a mild trip (makes me hella nauseated, so no dice until holodeck exists). If i ever go terminal, or get old enough to not care how much i fuck up my future, ill be doing all the drugs.

Im glad you've come out the other end of it reasonably intact, sounds like :) And thank you for sharing your experiences with me, for my edification :) i genuinely appreciate it. If you want to share more, even about other substances, id be interested in reading it, to live vicariously through you :)

Im going to save this but it sounds like those aren't just various strains of mushies? and idk if id go out of my way to obtain drugs i cant cultivate myself. I like the idea of mushrooms and i have spores and stuff, just not motivated to grow a new batch.

Ive seen extracts of mushies, called “crystals of the gods” which is a dumb name but the only extraction method ive found, and thats what I want to try, because its supposed to completely get rid of the body problems associated with it, though not the enhancement of your natural mood (in my case mostly anxiety)

Im kinda afraid of human-made or refined drugs, tbh. What if i like them?

Solid, I’ll keep that in mind, thanks!

I’ve never done acid but I did shrooms twice and haven't had the balls to try again.

The first time was ok, but the second time, come-up anxiety was so intense I spent the entire trip throwing up, shitting my brains out, and having a panic attack. I can’t do that again, but I’m still full of anxiety, so.. nope.

Someday id like to try an extract, I’ve heard the mushroom itself is where the anxiety and gastric discomfort comes from, but yeah I’m just not really motivated in case thats wrong.

Floors I can see through (metal mesh, drainage grates, thick glass, etc.)

I struggle to walk across it, even when it can hold literal cars.

Idk too many people who can read the art of war in under an hour, either :p

Name of the guy leads to name of the sister which could lead to name of the ship she’s deploying with making it clear that ship and its entire compliment will be around. Maybe that’s not the guys name, but with opsec like that there’s a solid chance it’s pretty easy to find out.

It doesn’t have to be a lot of information to you for it to be a lot of information to the intelligence wing of some other country.

It’s about the specifics, not the generalities.

lol none of them

My current cats are Tiabeanie and Rayla.

Tiabeanie is known as bean, bean sprout, sprout town, bean town, beanie baby, beanie butt, baby butt, sproutsalot, lil booger bean, tiny butt, and lady meows.

Rayla is known as Ray-bay (used to be “Ray-be” like baby, but it sounds like rabies), Rayla banana, banana, bananajam, stinky butt, and various other things when she’s annoying which is an absolute ton. I wouldn’t say banana is in any way related to Rayla name-wise, I started using it as a joke “because banana rhymes with Rayla!” (It doesn’t at all, for you ESL folks)

I used that “not a real person” face generation site to create a photo to sign up for the sake of curiosity and to see what the services were like in case I wanted to sign up for one for like friend matchmaking or whatever (not to catfish or anything, just don’t want my face all up in there), but after uploading the photo, then it started asking for an absolute gob of personal data and I noped out. Not worth it.