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I haven't noticed much so far but today I had some ketchup for the first time in a while and it tasted amazing, like just normal ketchup was so good I could eat it by itself. I really hope my tastes on more things change. I've heard some people start liking coffee. I hope I get that because I always loved the smell but hated the taste.

Think of it as a radical body modification. Suppose someone wasn't really a fan of having hair at all and wanted to just not. Most of the scientific research on hair loss has been about stopping or reversing it, but in all that research have we learned whether we could cause it to happen on purpose? I don't mean conventional hair removal, and I don't mean laser or electrolysis which both have significant limitations and wouldn't be feasible for total hair loss on the entire body.

I mean like a vaccine for hair, an injection someone could take that would cause their immune system to attack all their hair follicles in the same way we see in alopecia universalis, so they have literally no hair at all anywhere on their body permanently. It feels like it should be possible, especially now with the increasing use of mRNA vaccines.

I found a fun website where you can generate a custom pride flag! It has lots of gender/sexuality options and you can even do custom colors. Mine is transfeminine as the primary, with aromantic and bi-lesbian (which I had to do custom).

https://www.teamultima.org/flag/

I myself experience sexual attraction to both masculine and feminine people, leaning strongly toward feminine, but I have a hard time imagining myself being with a binary man. It feels a bit awkward to identify as a bi woman sometimes because my sexual attraction for men just kind of exists, yet I don't feel entirely comfortable identifying as a lesbian for the same reason. I just learned about the bi-lesbian flag/identity and it feels more right to me because I don't want to erase by bisexuality, even if I never choose to act on my sexual attraction to men. Curious what others think.

For context I have audhd. I've always been confused about the association between stacking toys and autism. I don't particularly remember stacking toys as a kid other than of course I did because I was a kid. Don't lots of kids try to stack stuff as high as possible occasionally? Why is this seen as an autistic trait? Is it a stereotype due to the historical bias towards autistic boys with a particular presentation or something else? If it really is associated with autism and not a bias, why do autistic kids do it more?

Hey y'all. Just wanted to vent a bit. I've been feeling really down lately, mostly because lately it feels like no matter what I do or how hard I try I can't seem to make people understand me. It doesn't really seem to matter if I'm talking to another neurodivergent person or not, people just assume they know what I'm saying and run with it. It just keeps happening and it's been creating more and more conflict at work, with my friends, with random people I have to deal with day to day. I feel so much like a fucking alien lately, like I'm speaking some language that no one around me understands but thinks they do. I had a meltdown the other day at a work friend who just could not stop for half a second to listen to what I was saying. I don't know if it's something I'm doing, I'm sure people will read this and assume that it is. At this point it doesn't even matter it just feels so pointless to even try. I want to cry with how badly I want someone to just listen to what I'm saying and try to actually understand. Like literally that's all I want, but it never seems to happen these days. I feel like it's going to cost me my job and friends. I feel like I'm going to lose everything and have to start my life over again somewhere else. I see how this is really a me problem. It's not fair but the burden is on me to make people understand what I'm saying. I see how my lack of energy and motivation to do so is making it impossible for me. I want to put forth the effort but I just have nothing left. I fucking hate myself for that, even knowing it's not really my fault. Thanks for reading if you got this far. This was stream of consciousness.

I'm in my early 30s, been on HRT for a few months now (boobs growing yay), and I work with another trans woman, late 20s fully transitioned years ago. We work together and have hung out outside work several times, and I can't escape the fact that I'm getting feelings for her. This has been building for me for the past couple years, but we've worked together for at least 3. The situation is complicated because we work together and I don't want to do anything to compromise our working relationship/friendship, which has been really good. She's also married (her wife is a trans woman), poly, and ace. I love being around her and talking to her. I want to get to know her better and be physically affectionate with one another. Sex is pretty much off the table and not something I seem to want from her anyway. Mostly I just want to hold her and tell her how much she means to me. There's a part of me that really wants to tell her how I feel about her, but there's a much larger part that doesn't. I'm terrified of learning that my feelings are unwelcome, that just expressing my feelings will end our relationship. So far I haven't said anything, or even hinted anything, but it hurts so much to want to be closer and to hold myself back from taking a chance. I know that this is probably the worst time in my life to try, having only started transitioning a few months ago and only recently being finally done with a (messy) previous relationship. I just don't know if I can carry on with things the way they are. Obviously the answer is to enjoy being friends with this woman I care so much about. Maybe something will change in the future. Maybe nothing will. Either would be better than losing her now. But knowing that doesn't really change how I feel...

Idk what I'm expecting to get out of posting this. I guess I just wanted someone to listen. I don't really have anyone in my life right now who I think would understand. Thanks for reading. Happy to hear any thoughts y'all would like to share.

If there were no restrictions other than physics and you could have any body you want. Like four arms, elf ears, snake lower body, double vagina, whatever you want. I've been thinking about how I want to change my body a lot lately and it's got me wondering what people would want if they could really choose. Look like a specific celebrity? Be a real life anime girl? Be an amorphous shifting mass as free-form as thought? Be a giant space station? I just keep wondering what bodes we would choose if we really had the choice.