Quintus

At least I think I got it early. It's been a few days and the changelog is still not available.

I remember that on Reddit, a few years ago, there was a woman on a subreddit.

I was just looking what was on Reddit and doomscrolling r/shitposting for 20 minutes was more than enough. I decided to just type-in random words to the URL bar to see what subreddits I would stumble upon.

After lots of private and NSFW subs, finally I ended up on r/alone and I found this lady in the sea of "i wanna kill myself soooo baddddd" posts.

The lady was autistic if I remember collectly. She had a boyfriend who also had a mental ilness. Unlike her though, he was violent. He would scream at her for pointless things and shit.

The lady was always confused. At least she seemed so to me. Which is probably the autism. She had a hamster cage and had a brain-injured hamster that she kept because it was sick in the head just like her, as she put it.

Have no idea what happened to her. I still think about her sometimes. It just felt so sad.

I fuckin' signed in to YouTube with my existing account damn it

Ten minutes ago, I was watching the moon while listening to music. Specifically, "My Castle Town" by Toby Fox. And I just started crying. Tears of joy. I realized just how much I enjoy living. The pretty view of The Moon, the beautiful melody...

I never had any bad things happen to me. I love my parents because they are loving and kind, no trauma whatsoever, had depression once but I sent it away shortly. Lots of hospital visits though. But nothing serious. No girlfriends, no love pains etc.

I have basically nothing in my hands right now. But I'm always able craft new hobbies when I run out of them. By the mere power of imagination. In fact, I'm looking to learn French now because English was easy as fuck.

But while I enjoy life very much, I realize that I begin to distance myself from those that do not think the same. For instance, one of my friends never takes any joy from anything that he does. Say; complains about not having a girlfriend, being ugly etc. etc. He's the most handsome person I've ever seen in person. And girls just straight up lust over him. Yet, he insists on focussing on the negative. Which makes zero sense to me. Why is he ruining his own life by refusing to see the good?

Now I do realize that most people are not as lucky as me to be with absolutely no problems in their lives. However, I had the "basic" set of problems that men my age have. Those being:

• Like a girl but she rudely refuses you (or even insults)
• Argue with parents

And my "friends" are always so offended by these problems all they do is complaining about them non-stop. One even tried to kill himself over a girl. I genuinely can't warp my head around this. Why? When I encountered these things I never cared or at worst deluded my way out.

Why can't people just sit down and appreciate life? When I'm sitting down waiting for something, the mere ability to move my limbs seems fascinating to me. I get out of so many things.

Don't get me wrong I don't mean any of this as seeing myself above others. (Although I do have a massive ego.)

Meanwhile, I will watch the Moon.

Until yesterday I used to have long hair. Due to unusually high tempetures I started having problems with the skin on my head. So, to avoid problems. I shaved it clean and it will remain that way until the skin in treated.

Now that I'm bald, I now know what's it's like. It sucks. My old hair suited me perfectly. It was messy just the right amount, perfect length, made me look different than the rest and handsome as hell. Every girl would look at me where ever I went to. Compliments floating over the air, jealous looks from other men etc. etc. It made me feel powerful.

But most importantly, it suited my personality and clothing. It was perfect! But now it's gone. I hate bald me. I will never look back at this bald version of myself.

It feels weird. I don't feel that bad but still it's disheartening.

This is one of the tracks that I made for the video game project I'm working on. I'm still a beginner in music though. So I believe it might sound bad. I think volume balancing could use some polish.

This might also be an automatic response to prevent discussion. Although I'm not sure since it's MS' AI.