Crewman

Does it get better? Not particularly, no. It doesn't get any easier to bear, you'll never get used to it, you just stop caring so much. it won't hurt as hard because you just don't let it, not anymore. And its horrible, it sounds selfish. But there's never going to be a time where you won't wake up with their face fresh in your thoughts, you just won't care, you can't keep caring. you got work in two hours and you have to keep moving, you can't let it slow you down, you can't stop going. the world didn't stop going, nobody did, everything's as usual, you can't stop.