nagaram

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[–] nagaram@startrek.website 1 points 1 week ago

Bowling For Soup either made it or covered it. Hard to tell with punk tbh

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 24 points 1 week ago

You see how

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[–] nagaram@startrek.website 1 points 2 weeks ago

I have a near complete control of a market segment.

I want to monetize that control further.

I release slot machine mini games into my most popular games.

I have contributed to the gambling epidemic that plagues modern society.

I am not a trust worthy entity.

I am Steam

Does that make sense?

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 2 points 2 weeks ago

Thank you for your click saving service

[–] nagaram@startrek.website -3 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

Loot boxes are not a monopoly.

Its a bad thing they did to abuse their monopoly stance

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 28 points 2 weeks ago

Insane to think an in image attribution is advertising, but a direct link is fine.

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 8 points 2 weeks ago

And didn't you learn a valuable lesson about scrolling socials when you should have focused on those KPIs?

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 0 points 2 weeks ago (4 children)

Maybe the difference is effort versus objective reality.

You and OP are concerned with whether or not they became a monopoly maliciously when I think the previous commenter is concerned with whether or not they simply are a monopoly.

In my view they are a monopoly and they have abused that. I'm thinking of their loot boxes and silent support of skin gambling.

We should be mistrustful of institutions with this much power, regardless of if they're actively abusing it.

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 1 points 2 weeks ago

The joke is that one would assume its a sappy sentiment that I'm thinking about home and my spouse while I relax with a beer.

And the punch line is alcoholism

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 1 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

Beer I get on the last day of a work trip by myself and tomorrow morning I fly home to my spouse I haven't seen in a week

(They don't let me drink)

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 3 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Your username is almost relevant though

 

I'm currently reading a good book on the history of magick and it's weird little niche's that keep getting carved out in clerical law so that emporer's, kings, and popes can practice magick.

It's called "The Magic Books: A History of Enchantment in 20 Medieval Manuscripts" by Anne Lawrence-Mathers

So I think I'm going to have to read some early church father's books now just so I get a good understanding of their perceptions of magic and what is crossing the line. St. Albertus Magnus will be the my definer for old versus new magic and enchantment perceptions. Old magic is stuff developed with Pagan/Heathen world views in mind that early Christians were heavily influenced by and seemingly didn't want to do away with the scientific aspects of those religions. Or at least what would have been perceived as scientific in that they were doing horoscopes and other divination with Pagan Astrology knowledge. 

After Albertus, there became a call to differentiate Natural and Divine magic. Natural magic is what comes from the plants, the stones, and the stars. Divine being all things that belong to gods and demons. So as long as you are doing your magic with approved ingredients, then you won't be burned at the stake Starting in ~1250 C.E.

[–] nagaram@startrek.website 1 points 3 weeks ago (1 children)

Would you like to talk more?

I'm interested in making friends. I'll send you my email if you'd like

 

I have a Hugo blog I'm setting up to work on my own forgejo server flow instead of through Github Pages.

I hate how pictures work on Hugo so I was going to just host them on a separate thing and embed the images that way.

Now I'm over thinking it and considering to just run a Lemmy instance, post the markdown for the blog posts there along with the images. Then I have an image host and a place to let people complain about my shotty writing in one go.

Plus there's federation visibility as well.

So short questions

  1. This a good idea?

  2. Are there better options?

  3. is it easy enough to set up a single user Lemmy/Piefed instance?

  4. Lemmy or Piefed? Which is easier to host

 

Picking and choosing which practices to pull from is practically easy but can offer some moral reflections. Most of us will ultimately pull from what is most familiar to us reverting back to our pre-Atheist cultures. Ex-Christians will gravitate towards a Christian Aesthetic much as Ex-Bhuddists will gravitate towards a Bhuddist Aesthetic. However, there is nothing wrong with a Western raised person building their practice on an Eastern based Aesthetic and vice verse. When starting from an Atheist perspective, there are zero consequences metaphysically to picking a faith based on anything other than aesthetics or how well you simply “vibe” with the teachings and modern practice of that tradition.

Why Pick a Tradition

It makes things easier to grow and evolve from.

The point of a lot of Occult practice is to experiment with rituals, prayers, spells, talismans, etc until you find what ever makes you feel successful. That success feeling can be interpreted in basically any way you deem important whether you become more confident in yourself, your enemies succumb to sickness, or you’re simply having fun. So if you can find an established practice with books on theory, practice, and ethics that mostly fits your vibe and you think you can make do with it’s practices then by all means, take advantage of this established tradition.

My first tradition was an obsession with Goetia. I performed several rituals from the Lesser and Greater keys of Solomon translated by Aliester Crowley. I did them poorly by any measure to be sure. I didn’t respect them as much as I do now. Not because I believe in it’s claims more, but because I have since fully embraced the context of the text I used by learning it’s history, the history of Crowley, and the history of Occultism.

I want to clarify that I have “embraced the context”. I do not know it’s full history or it’s translator, or especially of the occuly. I have simply put in the effort to start learning how we got to here. I will never finish learning how we got to here, but I will probably become satisfied with what I know enough to deviate. I have deviated much from what I originally performed half assed while following dorm room safety precations. You must change a good chunk of most rituals to perform them in a dorm by the way.

What ever tradition you pick, make sure you have either a good library or a good teacher to help you learn fundamentals and context of the “hows” and “whys”.

Learning hows will let you learn how to go about ritual preparations in hopefully ways that respect the world from which you are obtaining those materials. Take a foraging class if you do not want to trust a spiritual leader or author on the subject and maybe want a more conservationist approach. That is where I learned much of my herbalism and localized it to me. To no one’s surprising, the ritual herbalism of 16th century European Alchemists mean very little to a man in Kentucky.

Whys are important in that they explain the metaphysical reasons and symbolism of what you’re doing. Learning that Herb X is associate to Moon Cycle Y and is most magically significant on Date Z because of the planetary alignment is most of the rituals. The point above the stated claim of the magick itself will always be to be mindful of this world and the world beyond. Whether that is the world beyond earth or the world beyond this material plane matters little to the human psyche: both are just as incomprehensible yet awe inspiring.

Nearly all religious and spiritual traditions recognize the fundamental fact that the world is bigger than us in some way. This is the most important part of starting your own path to whatever you are seeking. Ideally you will deviate to what you think is the most awe inspiring, but if you are happy with a pre made spiritual world view, then enjoy it, but don’t let it become dogma. Always question a how or why if it makes you uncomfortable or disagrees with your ethics.

Ethics of a Tradition

There does come a problem with approaching any traditions ideas as an atheist in that they are all equally real.

If you have no theological basis and especially if you reject the metaphysical claims of a universal truth be it a god’s will or some gnostic panpsychist as in the case of Philip Goff, then you cannot judge any tradition on legitimacy except through your ethics alone.

If you do not have your own ethical framework set in stone, worry not, that is the mostly like scenario. If you do, feel free to ignore me or argue with me in an email that I will actually read.

For me there are two motives for which I judge a tradition before considering incorporating it into my own practice.

First, is it a money grab?

To me there is very little I detest more than someone writing slop that sounds spiritual and “wooey” simply to prey on the naive lust for learning for people seeking an alternative to the hegemonic traditions. These are books written to sell “another way” to pent up Suburban Christian Moms so that they become Crystal witches who have been convinced that simply buying pretty rocks and organizing them within your home fixes most problems. New Problem? New Rock! Problem bigger? Bigger Rock! Until you have waisted untold funds on rocks that do nothing and yet you are no more connected to whatever this is than you were your christian church.

My condemnation is one in hindsight. I have frequented many rock shops and I love the rock shows that pop up in my town every year. You get to meet many people who are genuinely intuned with a psiritual practice and are simply trying to support themselves doing what they know and that’s vague hedge wtichary. It is most likely what you will encounter first when trying to connect locally. For that I don’t mind patronizing them as I do enjoy incense and candles as a ritual sacrifice. And there are certainly worse sins in a new-age occultists hunt for enlightenment.

If you have rejected the temptations of occult “retail therapy” consider the problem of Occult Self Help Nonsense. You see, the problem of Occultism is that it has been rejected knowledge for the last 300 years. Even a healthy resurgance in the 1890’s and again in the 1960’s and once more in the here and now of the 21st century, has yet to establish any authority on the matter. There is no Jstor Magazine publishing only the peer reviewed magickal texts. There is no Temple that has canonized any text. It is simply your judgement that determines if a text is worthy. This is why I rejected Mindfulness as a practice for years after learning about it because it sounded like some woo that I had to stock far to many books on the shelf at Barnes and Nobles with. Serious, how can I not look at mindfulness as any less of a problematic scam when there’s several dozen authors and a hundred books offering “the one true way to mindfulness guaranteed in 100 days!” for only $36 hard back edition.

That phenomenon is such a problem within Alternative Thought spaces that I fell for this while I was mad about mindfulness (a real and useful thing I practice now), I bought “The Kyballion” by the Three Initiates which I learned only this year, two months into 2026, was published by a slop self help and sales strategy publishing magnate in 1890. Thank you my friend Reverend Erik at Arnemancy for reminding me I had that book in a trunk in my closet and also telling me I’m a sucker.

I’m a little mad, but it’s a lesson learned and now my ethics in tradition hunting has become more defined. I can tell some of the important tells between a genuine piece of Occult Scholarship and slop made to look like it’s real occult knowledge and ideas just to sell me a book on Amazon.

Personally, AI has made this much easier for me to tell, but has also muddied the landscape for those less attuned to good occult authors and what an AI generated book cover looks like. I need to make a better recourse, but I have my own Mastodon thread of good books to get started here but Reverend Erik’s I think is better here and their reading list for Hermetecism is really good so far here, my friend Cat I also recommend Dr. Justin Sledge’s introduction to Western Esotericism for a video based broader introduction here

These are folks I have interacted with enough to trust their judgement who offer a large library of further vetted works. If you are not experienced with vetting a source as real, please stay within either your chosen traditions canon or find someone you trust and follow their reading lists. And do not feel bad if you fall for a Kyballion. I was finishing up my degree in History and knew better about source vetting when I bought mine. I have several other duds that came from drunken nights on Abebooks or lazy sunday shopping sessions at my local book reseller. Truthfully, the book that got me into Alchemy is little more than a Coffee Table book I bought at head shop near my college. Worthless at this stage, but invaluable for at least getting me into things.

If you’re scared of buying books, worry not there are plenty of online libraries like The Hermetic Library here with free ebooks and online versions of books, as well as a growing number of personal blogs such as Cat’s blog on Midwestern Paganism and Witchcraft here and a more dubious recommendation for David Maciver at “Overthinking Everything” who’s like me in that he’s a tech guy who’s into a secular form of magic here (Warning He uses Substack and AI generated Thumbnails if your ethics disagrees with those)

Second is Exclusion

When I first started to question this line of ethics, I was comparing Neo-Pagans with Starseeds (a hindsight disgusting comparison) because I couldn’t tell why I wanted to view the Pagans as more legitimate than the Starseeds.

To catch you up, Pagans are Pagans. Very loose anti-authority religion that focuses on worshiping what feels right to them. Truly an ideal that I strive for and a definition I cannot take for myself as it’s from my friend Ferret on Mastodon. You are certainly aware of Pagans if you’re interested in a post like mine.

Starseeds are a different matter. Starseeds believe they are descendants of Ancient Alien Races and have powers that make them superior to other humans and even other breeds of Starseed. They believe they are in communication with those Alien Races through mental and DNA “downloads” they receive from their still space fairing siblings. On a quick read, this isn’t really any more harmful that most New Age and Occult thought, but just read it again and think about other people who argued they were members of a, say, “master race.” Maybe it would help to learn that the founder of “Star People” a Brad Steiger was following the trend of erasing native people’s history by giving credence to Aliens with little to no evidence because of a common white supremecist zeitgeist that brown people can’t build Pyramids! Youtuber FunkyFrogBait did a really good rundown on them and why they suck here but the crux is that they want to be better than people. They want to be above another and go so far as to claim exclusion to their “tradition”.

Lots of traditions exist in a lot of aesthetics that are racist or bigoted in their teachings. There are traditions following Crowley that are overtly Neo-Nazi in credence. There are Satanic sects that are Transphobic. Hell, there are atheists who claim reason and then cite quacks because “feelings aren’t real” (see: Anything Interesting ).

I have put my line down fairly firmly that anything to do with a modern conception of bigotry has no place in my life. If I learn it, it is just so I can recognize when that practice is happening before me and I can call it out.

This does start to call into question ancient practices though. Lots of early Western Religious systems were Sexist like Plato’s system or they were Race/Ethniically Exclusionairy like early Judaism. And nearly none of them had a real conception of Gender and Sexual Minority identities just because that wasn’t a big deal in their time.

It is my opinion, that we can take from these ancient cultures and add or remove whatever we deem worthy to fit our own ethics because they are so removed from our modern zeitgeist that they did not have the chance to be tested against modern morals by their founding members. These are ideas that belonged to a specific Historical and anthropological time and that time is long gone. No one has any claim to them or authority on them any longer. You are no longer tied to the full belief systems of the founders of those cults.

You can certainly denounce certain ideas that have made it through the ages and into the minds of bigots, but to deny a whole system that humans have deemed useful for so long as to keep around for thousands of years feels wasteful. And ones that were forgotten for all this time like the Nag Hammadi Corpus or the Greek Magical Papayri offer an interesting alternative history option. What if the Gnostics had become the major claimants of Christianity? What if the Greek Magical Papyri had been turned to instead of a Montheistic god? What if Bhuddism had had a written tradition earlier and could travel further? Imagine! A Roman Centurian practicing Bhuddist meditation! How would these have changed if allowed to live on? How can you rehabilitate a forgotten path?

Truly, it is up to you to determine how much time has past and how much relative harm has been done in the interum to judge a practice as worthy for yourself. My line is complicated. I think yours should be too. You should put thought into where you draw the line and why. Re-evaluate often. Always remain open to new ideas in case you no longer want to be who you are.

Conclusion

Picking your way through the infinite library of spiritual thought and practice to build your own world view should be a meditation in itself. Why are you drawn to the texts of Ancient Author X instead of Y? Why don’t you read Modern Author A instead of B? IT can be as simple as liking their Aesthetics be it the world view aligns with your ethics, or their poetry is just magnumanius. It is ultimately up to you, but be warry of modern authors who seek to take advantage of people wanting to learn a world view alien to them, and one trying to tell you Aliens are more real than ancient brown people.

Through practice you will become better at identifying good sources from bad sources. You will fail from time to time, but learning from that failure is part of the journey you’re trying to lead. Hell, this blog itself may become a bad source one day. There are no guarantees that I will remain with the ethics I have. Neither is it guaranteed that anyone I have mentioned in my blog posts will stay a good authority in these matters. People do change. Interpretations of the dead do change. And one day all words and ideas will leave their original context and then the meaning in them is only meaning ascribed by the reader.

You must always change and grow and better. It is the only way down this path.

 

Someone is interested in your practice.

What books/lectures/philosophies do you tell them to start with?

I'm fairly well rounded because I'm not committed to a single practice.

My interest has been mostly academic so my 4 books to start with would be

"Western Esotericism: a guide for the perplexed" by Wouter Hanegraff

"The Alchemists Handbook" by Frater Albertus

"Three Books of Occult Philosophy" by Henry Cornelius Agrippa

"The Three Magical Books of Solomon: The Greater and Lesser Keys & The Testament of Solomon" by Aleister Crowley, S. L. MacGregor Mather's, F. C. Conybear

The guide for the perplexed, Handbook, and Occult philosophy I think give a good intro to the historical context of magick and the occult while the next two give good modern context and peak Renaissance context respectively.

The idea is to have a well rounded understanding of what magick even is as a concept and then offering a grimoire (The Books of Solomon) as a place to start exploring deeper.

I think a past me on Tumblr would be getting lambasted for even suggesting someone should try Goetia after no practice and some contextual readings, but that's where I started. I don't think I believe in magick and this is all just a fun aesthetic, but I have performed several rituals from the Goetia for fun. It really encapsulated the stereotypical modern occult experience and truly sent me down the path I'm on now (Imteresting only because my first summon was Zagan and I asked for wisdom).

Where would you tell someone to start?

 

I've been wanting to get a distillation kit to start some alchemy experiments and making my own oils and fragrances for my altar.

Do you have any recommendations? How do you like it? What do you use? Tips before I drop $100 on a kit and then figure it out?

 

Original Blog Post

My altar is less aesthetically pleasing than mosts I have seen posted on the Tumblrs and Instagrams of the world. It has a vibe to it that I enjoy.

It is based vaguely on the description in Oberron Zell-Ravenloft’s “Grimoire for the Apprentice Wizard” in that it has a representative of all four elements(earth, water, wind, fire) and it has a higher and lower teir to represent our higher and lower self. The shelf that separates the two is a black box that I have painted with symbols that are important to me. One is the symbol for the demon king Zagan (who’s name I stole to give to my cat Zagan) and the other is a Triquetra a symbol for unity and interconnectedness, something I value in myself and society. I painted them with silver paint which I just thought looks cool and I wear a lot of silver but the symbolism of silver in occultism is a connection to feminine energies and the moon.

Things to include by Element

Earth - rocks (duh). I have Labradorite. It’s my favorite semi-precious gemstone because it’s pretty, but it’s hard to find the parts that are pretty. You need the right light and angle to find the shiny beauty spots. It’s a reminder that beauty is always visible but not always immediately. One must look to find beauty in all things because all things are beautiful.

Water - Water (duh). I have a few vials of water on my altar. One is a jar of river water from my home town that I collected after a flood. The other is water from Lake Superior I collected on vacation there where I met some kindly witches collecting stones on the beach (like I was doing). It is equal parts a reminder of good times and the fluidity of time. Much like the river flows and the lake washes new stones onto the beach, so to does time flow and things change. Not always for the better, but we must carry on to find new beauty.

Air - Bells and Feathers. I have bells from all over that I’ve thrifted over the years. They make all kinds of chimes some deep, some light, some far too pingy and I get annoyed having to move them, but all of them are only making noise for a moment and that moment is long enough to drastically change my mindset. These are often actual tools as opposed to purely symbolic meditations. Much like Pavlov making dogs think of food, I use bells to pull myself out of whatever mundane drudgery I am experiencing and immerse myself in meditation. Although, to be honest, I am mostly using a meditation app with a gong sound more than bells.

The feathers I’ve collected from various places and types of birds (none I killed but many were deceased). Birds are wonderful symbols of freedom and letting go. View it as a symbol for that. Let your mind be free like the bird is free to explore and travel where it pleases. Follow a bird around one day. It’s a wonderful type of meditation.

Fire - Candles and Incense. Candles and incense are such an essential aspect of modern witchcraft and occultism that you can find lists of meanings and uses for certain colors and scents all over. Since I’m an atheist, I know it doesn’t matter and gave myself meaning and uses. Hell, I “summoned a demon” using battery powered tea lights and a essential oil diffuser because my dorm banned candles. So I have three preferred candle colors: red, green, purple. When I am working, I burn a red candle. When I am meditatating, a green candle (placed on the higher shelf of the altar). When I am relaxing, the purple candle.

Why those colors? I really like the color red and the other two were on sale at Hobby Lobby so I bought a bunch. The color symbolism is arbitrary to me. You can follow the traditional standards of chakra candles if you so wish. Or maybe certain colors remind you of certain contexts you wish to evoke. In a way, red does good as a working color because my childhood school’s colors were always red and some others. So I associate red with focus and academic work.

Things to Include by meaning (CW: Dead Animal Mention)

This sorta stuff really gives you and excuse to collect knick-knacks and baubles of all sorts. I enjoy collecting carved semi-precious stone statues, sexual idols, and animal remains.

The stone statues I collect are pretty boring. I was gifted a Blood stone skull by a dear friend and I already had a ceramic skull paper weight my dad had given me as a child from his own days of collecting haunted looking objects (he was a Cathoilic not an occultist, but he liked having props in front of his Dungeons and Dragons screen while Dungeon Mastering). So now I collect well done stone skulls.

The sexual idols kinda started as a bit. I also 3D print a lot and I love printing a penis shaped character called Ding Ding to test out calibrations, colors, and new printers. So my house is covered in little penis guys and some naturally ended up on all my altars. Then years later, my fiance and I were at a rock and gem show where someone was selling female bodies with an uncomfortable spine curvature, fine tits, and a ridiculous ass. So we bought some of those in various stones since we must balance feminine and masculine energies to achieve peak post-gender god like status as it were.

Animal remains was a conflicting call for me. I found a really well cleaned and reconstructed Cyote skull at a different rock and gem show early on in my altar building days. However, I didn’t know if I wanted to include it because it felt like I was evoking animal sacrifice imagry into my altar. And that is a fair read on my altar but not what I personally feel. For me its a Stoic reminder of our own mortality. I will die just as Mr. Bones died. I also have the preserved jarred body of a baby albino snake I bought at a reptile show. That one had similar symbolism too it but with the added allussion to the alchemical symbol of the ouroboros. Maybe the snake means more in that the cycle will end one day with death. Maybe it’s just a cool morbid knick-knack.

You can really include whatever brings you back to a sense of mindful reflections is the point. I have a friend who’s altar is exclusively for her crafted stuff like little statues and fairy homes. And what is a Christmas village or a Model Train table but an altar like zen garden with tiny people and tiny trains?

I may even be convinced of a digital altar like this one where I am simply meditating on my own actions publicly!

What is an Altar to me

My altar is a place for ritual. It’s a grounding space for me that I use to take me out of whatever mindset I’m in and enter into an appropriate one. It’s my portal into my own psyche and my own place of control. It is also we’re I keep reminders of things dear to me. Friends from years past. Memories of old versions of myself. Reminders that life is fluid and that I grow.

 

What's your go to easy meal?

For me its Golden Curry. Just dice up some veg, boil in veg/mushroom broth, and serve with rice.

It takes probably 20 minutes and is very inactive.

It also has the plus that I can use basically any veg combo, but I don't really stray far from the OG carrots, potatoes, and onions. I do often add broccoli or cauliflower.

Bonus points for beanless and cornless recipes. Fiance can't have either :(

 

I've wanted to start carrying a mobile altar and meditation stool for a bit and I'm pretty happy with it.

Simple fire, air, water, and earth (candles, bell, jar of rain water from home, citrine) altar in a mint tin with my star sign and a pentacle on it.

The idea is the reflected surface of the mint tin is my mirror.

It is wrapped with my altar cloth (which I didn't realize was a Mother/goddess cloth until now) with a green candle and lighter.

It travels with a Sieza bench in my luggage.

 

I love bad books. Popular bad books. Non-fiction bad books. Any bad book is worth a read every once in a while.

Bad books aren’t objectively bad in my opinion just books that might not be for me or I even disagree with. The best bad books are the books that I want to enjoy because they’re popular or because the premise is fun. And what makes them bad is equally fluid and often just my own bias.

Why Bad Over Good?

Good books are good books. What is there to talk about? What do we even do in a Tolkein book club? Make sure everyone has read Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit. Then divide the room into people who preferred the Hobbit or thought LOTR was too long but still good. Then we share the same fun facts about the extended edition of the movies?

Boring. We get it. Essential reading for the book lover.

Now a shlocky Romantasy that very clearly ripped scene from other Young Adult novels and then put the “Fuck” word or act in there (with adults of course). Now we’re talking! How many different books do you recognize? Is this transformative? Are we out of original ideas? Does the sex add anything? Is she a good writer because I felt the intended emotion even if the scene is stupid? Can I do better than this? I should try!

A proper bad book where the flaws are glaring enough that I, a simpleton, can see them and talk about them is so much fun. There’s a discussion, there’s room for disagreement, there are no stakes! There may even be diamonds in the rough….

Finding Good ideas in Bad Books

It’s no secret that I love Slavoj Zizek and his writings, but not because they’re good.

Zizek is a load of fun to read because it really is a cacaphony of references and jokes interspersed with “And now to contradict myself!” that makes it feel profound. If I was smarter I think I’d call any Zizek book the philosophy equivalent of “Finnegans Wake”. The books are non-sense but there is a hidden idea that you, the reader, must decode. Maybe you disagree with the meaning, maybe you found a different meaning than what was intended, maybe the referenced book sounds interesting so you start reading Judith Butler instead (a good author).

Bad philosophy books are stimulating in that they triggered the part of your brain that wants to “philosophize” in that you want to express why you feel the way you feel. Be it the author made a good point in a bad way or maybe they made a bad point and you want to really think out a rebuttle they will never read.

Allowing a transgressive thought to make you reflect and expound upon is the correct way to use offensive content. There are obviously exceptions to this idea in that some people write books explicitly to be useless propaganda.

Bad Books verses Unreadable Books

I think the defining feature of a bad book is that it is genuine in it’s attempt to do whatever it is trying to do.

I love Rebecca Yarros “Fourth Wing” not because it’s good fantasy (or even exceptional porn) but because it feels like she’s trying to write an entertaining book. It feels like a genuine attempt at decent world building. It’s a flawed story and the world doesn’t make any sense when you think about it trying to be anything other than an explanation for why everyone is so horny.

Zizek is living far too modestly for someone who is simply a political grifter leveraging memes and podcast interviews to sell suplaments to a guilable audience. He’s even said he’d rather write the occastional Ambrocrombe and Fitch ad if it means he’s not married to a publisher or Patreon account. And that makes his work feel more genuine. I am convinced this is how he really feels and thinks.

Now, on the other end, I’ve read a lot of political writings from people I hard disagree with. I’ve read theological works from people who seemingly just like that they are a “published author”.

I used to worry that I was easily influenced and that I would just agree with or enjoy any book because I invested the eight-ish hours it takes to read one. Then I read a book I thought was interesting, and the point was one I agreed with, but it was so painfully obvious that this author had nothing new or interesting to add. It read as if they were a high schooler who had Chat GPT write a paper on something controversial, but it was pre-LLMs and I think ChatGPT would have been more interesting.

This was the first time I found a Liberal leaning grifter since I did find their podcast and heavily pushed merch store. It was embarrassing to see.

I’ve since given a lot of people I would disagree with a chance. I read Charlie Kirk’s ghost written slog feast, Ben Shapiro’s argument-less book on “Bullies”, and a book by Glenn Beck? I guess he was a Proto-Stephen Crowder.

“Authors” like that really helped me solidify the difference in my mind between “Transgressive” and “insubstantial but I’m triggered.” They’re so hard to talk about because there is very little to pull from. I was hoping to find a real argument to look into. I was giving them a fair shot and not just be angry monologues and accusatory language without any reflection.

Every arguments seems to have been “The Libs accuse us of being classist, homophobic, racist, sexists who use slurs and dedicate all our time to making life worse for minorities, poor people, and the Libs. But by calling US fascists, they show that they are the REAL FASCISTS!” And then just a bunch of examples of times someone got punched for saying a slur in public and crying “See, free speech haters!”

I don’t want to hang on this too long. It’s just the most egregious example of “Unreadable books”.

Books are Easy to Make

Yes I know it’s not that easy, especially if you want a good publisher, but book writing is so accessible these days that anyone can be a published author in hours with an Amazon Kindle account and a ChatGPT subscription. Maybe not a Good author or even a defendable Bad Author. You’d be an awful author but an author in the technical sense.

However, it is this accessibility of writing that I think allows for a diverse range of written works to exist. We no longer have the traditional filters that ensure only good or readable books are available. And I worry that the awful authors have soured the world of reading.

It is so easy to say any book that even begins to offend is trash and should be abandoned as a “Did Not Finish”. And with authors like the ones mentioned and the AI slop farms poisoning our book supply, I can’t really blame someone for not wasting their precious time on this earth with a Bad Book.

Yet, even with my bad experiences, I love the things I’ve learned about myself and the world at large because of bad books. I will continue committing way too much time to authors who probably don’t deserve the fame or my money.

 

Gods and worship have been quintessential aspect of the human experience since all of known human history. Yet, there are those of us who have chosen to defy these well established rules of society. Why you have chosen to abandon a creator framework for life is, to me, irrelevant, but I do want to make a claim that the conception for god is a useful tool for navigating life and our journey of self discovery and self improvement.

Why should I care about “god”?

Gods have always been a societal tool and a personal tool in my eyes. It’s an abstract rallying point that gives common language and experience between otherwise wholly unrelated humans. Think of a modern Church, Synagoge, or Temple of any sort. They are less interesting as a lecture hall on a thousands year old book than they are as communal halls to give people from all walks of life a reason to interact with each other. It’s a neutral ground where teachers, laborers, bankers, and so on may meet and form relationships that may have otherwise never happened.

You have a language with which to describe feelings and an actionable framework with which to define “doing good”. You have a place to talk about experiences of your higher self in a, ideally, judgement free space. Take the Unitary Universalist service experience for example. The idea there is to just share art and poetry that inspires you to do good and feel the warmth of being a kind person. The sermons are similar in that they simply promote what their community views as virtues that make you feel good.

Is it correct to say you felt god channeling through you when you did a good dead? No probably not, but it communicates the idea that you felt really good while doing the good deeds. It’s actually a pretty complex emotion that is highly personalized, but by abstracting it in a vague language of a religion one is able to share those feelings easier with the subtext of this complexity.

Now yes I do understand the more cynical readings of a religious community. Believe me, I’m well aware of the stats of abuse and brainwashing that goes on there under the guise of maintaining Communal Cohesion or maintaining the community. But this work is to highlight the good parts of a religious community and further a conception of god.

Gods are as much a personal tool as a community tool. In a personal practice, I like to call gods an “Ego Saver.”

My favorite atheist debunking of religion is The Milk Jug Experiment. For those unaware, the Milk Jug Experiment is this logical thought process to debunk prayer. Imagine, when you pray to god there are three possible answers to your pray: yes, no, maybe. Yes, god has favored you and will assist you. No, god does not think you deserve the outcome or this is part of his plan so it must happen. Maybe, it might be granted but not in the way that you intended. The idea is that these are just how probability works and praying to a Milk Jug will garner the same results so long as you still ascribe the outcome of those prayers to the Milk Jug.

Now, the point of that exercise is to demonstrate the pointlessnes of prayer, but I think it demonstrates the abstract benefit of prayer in that you now have a scape goat to save your ego.

Ego and gods

Consider the convenience of blaming your problems on someone else. Sure, it’s a dick move to throw someone under the bus, but it really is a convenient mental load balancer if you don’t have a conscious or you hate that other person. You have worked hard to reach a goal, but that goal was always dependant on many stars aligning that are far outside your control. You can only do so much to manifest the outcome that you desire physically but you have no control over these, from your perspective, completely probabilistic events. This is where Prayer comes in.

Random Chance is just a fact of the universe in terms of our perception. Sure most all events could theoreticalyl be controlled but the effort to do so is cartoonishly high. The example I like to give is a sports event. You want to win the sports event so you spend months training for it, but all of that effort may be for nothing if you say, get sick, you’re out trained, or you’re simply off your game at show time. That randomness causes uncertainty that can be anxiety inducing. Yes, obviously you could just accept this is part of the joy of these types of events, but I’m proposing Prayer to a god as a means to displace this anxiety as well.

“Please, Lord Cthulhu, let me win this Ping Pong Championship”

You have now psychologically tied your odds of winning to the will of a probably fictitious Old God. The act of this alone should be absurd enough to calm someone’s nerves. Yet, now you have someone to blame other than yourself if you don’t win and that is the ego saver or atleast the absurdist grounding technique to not ruin your self esteem. You now have a thing to blame when forces outside your control do not go your way instead of only stressing about not being good enough, not being worthy, and so on.

There’s even something to be said for the perks of ritual worship.

Habits, Rituals, Gods

A feature of mine if my love of occult rituals and the book “Atomic Habits” by James Clear. In “Atomic Habits”, James talks about affirmations and “Habit Stacking”. The idea is that to reach a goal, you are more likely to achieve that goal if you build a solid habit around working towards that goal and those are two tricks to building those habits.

Affirmations are pretty ubiquitous these days, but according to James Clear there is research that indicates saying out loud often what your goals are and affirming you will reach them, does in fact increase the likely hood you will do such a thing. Habit Stacking is similar in that the idea is to do something small to trigger a mental response to then do what ever good habit you want to complete. For me, I use my altar as a ritual habit catalyst. I light a red candle to symbolize focus and burn a rose scented incense because I like rose scented incense. This is no different to Pray or Spell casting.

I used to play football for a church league (which was interesting since I did not attend any of these churches). In that league we would pray before every practice and every game. We prayed for protection from injury and for success in either training or on the field. This was always a good mental focus on working out since before I’d be horsing around with the other boys and we would all get serious after the prayer. It also had this interesting mindfulness aspect in that we were aware that you can get injured and this was just as much asking to not get hurt as it was to gain something from the event.

So we used prayer as a affirmation and as a habit stack. So why not use it secularly? Except now our options of prayer targets is grand since it doesn’t matter who, it’s the action that matters.

 

cross-posted from: https://startrek.website/post/31913884

Meditation Sitting positions

I'm a large guy 6 ft 1 in and 280 LBS.

I struggle to sit criss cross for an hour because my legs get tired and my thunder thighs sorta push me off kilter and I wanna lean back.

So I've been sitting on my shins instead and this is way better for maintaining posture but I have just barely 20 minutes before my legs fall asleep and then it hurts once I get up to journal.

I don't want to use a chair or a pillow because I travel a lot and there's no guarantee I'll have those with me.

Any position suggestions? Maybe I'll look into a pillow or mat.

 

I'm a large guy 6 ft 1 in and 280 LBS.

I struggle to sit criss cross for an hour because my legs get tired and my thunder thighs sorta push me off kilter and I wanna lean back.

So I've been sitting on my shins instead and this is way better for maintaining posture but I have just barely 20 minutes before my legs fall asleep and then it hurts once I get up to journal.

I don't want to use a chair or a pillow because I travel a lot and there's no guarantee I'll have those with me.

Any position suggestions? Maybe I'll look into a pillow or mat.

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