marc4267

I've realized I'm a very atypical person: talking to coworkers in my age range today I realized they have a better financial situation than mine: they are married, some with children, own their own condos, houses, or are paying a mortgage, but can still live a normal life, own a car, some even have the luxury of not having to work 40 hours a week, but 32 because they don't need to work more, house already paid, family and life objectives achieved.

Me: I'm 43, I don't own but rent, meaning I pay for something I'm never going to own. The last 2 years I've been saving like crazy because I'm afraid of not having enough money for retirement, and because in my past I did so much stupid shit, meaning I wasted so many years not doing anything of use.

I have around 100K in the bank, I know I should invest but I'm also scared of losing that money and I don't know if I should use that money as a down payment for a house.

My father owns 3 houses and I envy him. I've been thinking about asking him to sell one of the houses and give me the proceeds so I can buy my own place because some of my coworkers did that and could finance their own home. When my father went to study to another state my grandfather bought him a house there so he wouldn't have to rent. When he moved back to home state he sold and invested the money to buy a new house there. He had way easier than me. It's not fair. I feel... unloved?

I guess this makes me an entitled ass but I feel so... lost?

To summarize, I feel like a loser because I'm old, I'm behind most of my coworkers my age, I'm a very individualistic person but this means I'm going to die alone, but sometimes I feel alone and scared of being old and alone. I don't own anything of value to my name, it's like I'm an old teenager.

I don't like my job, but I don't hate it most days. I'm only there because I need the money and conditions are decent. I clock in, do my thing, clock out and try to enjoy my hobbies and eat decently.

I don't believe most people would disagree with what I just wrote.

Mine is a blue collar job, physically demanding. The last 2 weeks have been working non stop from the beginning till clocking out, sometimes doing overtime that my employer pays, but not at a different rate. Yesterday I didn't do my pause. Today I barely did it.

One younger coworker asked me if I enjoy doing my job and I asked him if he's here as a volunteer. Obviously he is not, but he kept pestering me about me liking my job. I told him I like my hobbies and I'm here to work because I need money.

His is an office position btw, he sits way longer than I do.

By the look of his face you could tell this wasn't an answer he was ready to accept. To me however, this younger coworker is naive (and stupid).

I plan to keep my conversations with this person to a minimum and not disclosing personal information around him, and I really hope he doesn't talk to me anymore.

How would you deal with such a character?

Now I wonder if my answer can be used to fire me for 'lacking motivation', which is something any employer would write to justify firing somebody they don't like.

This person is not a manager and is not a close friend of any manager afaik.

I don't know if this is an appropriate question for this community, so mods, remove if needed.

The idea would be to fully insert the egg inside my bum to massage my prostate. Most of the eggs I'm considering have a cord at one end so you can slide it out when you're done. There are however things to consider:

Vibrating eggs are made of several parts, the cord usually attached to a piece of plastic attached to the main body of the toy, usually made of silicone. I fear the toy will break inside of me. OTOH I can relax my sphincter before taking the toy off.

Some other eggs can be used with 2 aaa batteries, main body also made of silicone. However, the models I found online don't seem to have a screw top. I don't see how the egg won't leave the cap inside of me.

The bigger and larger the better? Vibrating eggs I'm considering are on the 1" - 1.25" diameter range and 2.75" length range. Some other prostate massagers are much smaller, but I don't think they would make me feel anything.

There are also usb rechargeable eggs. Some of these have the charging port on the main body, meaning it goes inside of you when you use it. How can this be hygienic? I don't see how this can be easy to clean and last long (humidity and electricity don't combine well).

There are also cable connected eggs where you put the aaa batteries in the remote. After using it, I'd have to pull the cable when I'm done. Is this safe? I don't see how this item can last long if I have to pull the power cord each time I use it.

the more expensive the better? price ranges from $8 (power corded eggs where you provide the aaa batteries) to $45 (usb rechargeable egg with charging port at the end that won't go inside of you).