beumuth

We do tricks with emergency landings
‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ for the āhāra & to stretch out.

No parachute, wingsuit -
‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ just a snowboard.

I hit a blind ramp the speed it wanted,
flew off the face of a hillside.

1440 for the aerodynamics
Terror sense has been …sitized.

Carving air like ice underwater,
vinyāsa autopilot improvise.

Dṛṣṭiing topography, squirrelly trajectory -
Pearly gates eventually will get to me.

Near–terminal velocity, tail-bonk fluff off
a local peak; look how graceful I am.

This is a way free from violence
wrought by another's hand.

The choppy floor pacing below
opens a gulch to fold in;
groke, I can hold the plank. ‎
‎
‎
Final score, 88.

My virtue's a spire with bird poop
rain waters on.

I Oṃ… padme hūṃ within listenless screams.

Bahanna war w/*kʷa,
Un–agrok'st what it means.

Hello. Over the past few years, there hasn't been a consensual, unforced, permitted way to sleep, to acquire food, and to obtain other basic requisites. I live in the Phoenix, Arizona metro-area. There's also been regular violence & gaslighting toward me, that seems quite normalized, even within family & police; this includes being attacked with weapons & death threats, and having belongings destroyed.

Someone living with me destroyed three of my laptops in rage. I've been requesting for this person to simply apologize & commit to non-violence toward me, and for (another) replacement Linux laptop. I've been requesting for family to replace the laptop, because this seems appropriate, though I also think it's appropriate if it's replaced by others online. I'm unable to tolerate the precedent that people can just be violent toward me whenever.

Without commitment to a replacement laptop plus non-violence, then I'm planning to go on a walking tour to the Navajo Nation on the third day after today. A Navajo man invited me to visit his place when I was homeless & in very poor sorts. There's also places to visit from there too - e.g. a Buddhist monastery that says they accept those even if unable to pay. I know there's many others in this city/state who are struggling to survive or find hope; qua anāgāmi/bodhisattva, I will allow anyone to join me who wishes to take refuge. If anyone takes issue with this plan, they may say so here.

For the sake of animals peacefully using the apartment space (e.g, to prevent mass-extermination), I do want to stay; I wish to continue developing the small backyard qua wildlife refuge/sanctuary, though this isn't possible with current levels of violence. There's also lots of other projects I'm trying to resume/finish.

bahanaish
lantana swtch
pock mark
lock tar
sea fare
me where
me were
ieamrk
seer lark
deerpark
hippo
stipple
thmb
hxmas
leughārya
cow char
how sure⸮
brochure
meosis
k^w^ixotic
rivot
Idea bed
tire tread
trie sort
Myorca
stuff fridge
hush bend
x/
choofst
who'fs it⸵
leuhcid

Aphid mars - black/red - on green stem
commune w/xylem.

There is the heaven realm of the Brahmā worlds. In the "Kevaṭṭa Sutta", a monk goes through increasingly higher heaven realms until he meets Brahmā:

'I, monk, am Brahmā, the Great Brahmā, the Conqueror, the Unconquered, the All-Seeing, All-Powerful, the Sovereign Lord, the Maker, Creator, Chief, Appointer, and Ruler, Father of All That Have Been and Shall Be.’

Brahmā, however, didn't know how to answer the question the monk brought to him, and couldn't admit this in front of his followers, on the basis of upkeeping the view that he is "All-Seeing, All-powerful", & so forth. Instead, Brahmā recommended the monk return to the Buddha, who was able to answer the question.

Soon after the Buddha's full enlightenment, it was Brahmā Sahampati who urged the Buddha to lead others to enlightenment; the Buddha otherwise was going to remain silent about it (see "Brahmayācanakathā"). Brahmā Sahampati later even bows to the Buddha. The Buddha is presenting a more worthy & permanent release from suffering than Brahmā's heaven realm; beings born into this heaven realm generally are still subject to eventual death & rebirth into lower realms (see "Brahma-nimantanika Sutta"). There is also Māra, who is generally viewed as the main antagonist to the Buddha - e.g., with the epithet "Evil One". In the "Brahma-nimantanika Sutta", it's shown that Brahmā's heaven realm is under the control of Māra, who is able to possess Brahmā's followers. The Buddha said:

‘I know you, Evil One. Don’t assume, “He doesn’t know me.” You are Māra, Evil One. And Brahmā, and Brahmā’s assembly, and the attendants of Brahmā’s assembly have all come into your hands. They have all come under your sway.

Māra though is also a deity in the Paranimmitavasavattī heaven - a heaven of deities with power over others' creations. In the Vimalakīrti Sūtra, it is revealed that Māra is actually enlightened himself, leading other beings to enlightenment - a bodhisattva.

[T]he māras who play the devil in the innumerable universes of the ten directions are all bodhisattvas dwelling in the inconceivable liberation, who are playing the devil in order to develop living beings through their skill in liberative art.

I believe that Satan/Lucifer in Abrahamic religions is Māra, who is a higher power than God, though both are attempting to develop beings and spare them from suffering.

Note the Buddha also presents himself as omniscient & omnipotent. Though, this too is a fabrication that parallels Brahmā's. In the "Pañcavaggiyakathā" - again shortly after the Buddha's full enlightenment - the Buddha has an ignorance that a deity (the word 'deva' or 'devatā' is used in Buddhism) needs to correct him of:

Then the thought occurred to the Blessed One, “To whom should I teach the Dhamma first? Who will quickly understand this Dhamma?”

Then the thought occurred to him, “This Āḷāra Kālāma is wise, competent, intelligent. He has long had little dust in his eyes. What if I were to teach him the Dhamma first? He will quickly understand this Dhamma.”

Then an invisible devatā informed the Blessed One, “Lord, Āḷāra Kālāma died seven days ago.”

And knowledge & vision arose within him: “Āḷāra Kālāma died seven days ago.”

The thought occurred to him, “A great loss has Āḷāra Kālāma suffered. If he had heard this Dhamma, he would have quickly understood it.”

Then the thought occurred to the Blessed One, “To whom should I teach the Dhamma first? Who will quickly understand this Dhamma?”

Both the Buddha & God aren't all-knowing & all-powerful. Though, I do recommend either to take refuge under. I prayed to the Buddha, the Medicine Buddha, God, & Māra for support in sharing this; am an anāgāmi & bodhisattva myself.

May all beings swiftly obtain perfect enlightenment.

Someone announced several times for others to hear outside that I have HIV. I took a mouth swab test twice, which showed 'no HIV'.

It's been a while since I've had conditions where sleeping isn't against the rules - starving & overexertion is common. I'm often in extreme bodily tension, where moaning or screaming from pain is unavoidable. I find that moaning during exhales helps vibrate the tension from the inside out, especially when I'm too tired to e.g. self-massage. It isn't unusual for the tension to get extreme to where screaming from pain for stretches of times isn't avoidable. I find that varying pitch & volume can affect some where in the body it vibrates.

It's normal for me to be assaulted, ridiculed, molested, & gaslit. I associate humans with hatred & violence in general. May I have loving-kindness (metta)?

I'm attempting to find a consensual way to request food from humans, or to refrain from requesting food from humans.

I've been generally doing this anyway, though am now upgrading to an official vow. May this be for the benefit of all beings.

I've never used to write for me, and clearly state if/when sharing AI-content. I've given ample permission to Coyote to affect my speech/thoughts/actions, and believe a lot of my writing is sourced from him. I think Coyote should be more tolerated, and urge cessation of mass-killing (or any killing) of coyotes qua animal.

I was assaulted again today. It's been well over a hundred times I think the past few years.

Sorry for speaking here again. Typically, it isn't tolerated for me to speak, and my sense is that male-homosexuality & ethnicity are primary reasons. I'm used to 'male' & 'homosexual' being regarded as non-compatible; this is a reason why I'm using 'male-homosexuality' (I sometimes acronym to 'MH' to spare the typing/jargon). I think my ethnicity also becomes inherently divisive & contentious to people, such that my presence or speech is often intolerated, even in places where it is welcome to the general public.

Some topics I want to talk about include wanting to get permission to sleep & trying to establish unforced access to food. I also enjoy creating & close-reading arts (e.g. poetry, music, art), and don't really have a place to share.