You might get some better perspective by looking outside the "European" sphere.
You seem to have some similar thoughts to the author of the zine here.. An except:
European Anarchism is “1) A history of iconic figures. 2) A set of increasingly radical ideas about social transformation. 3) A practice that has only been uniform in its rejection by those in power.” And that it is also a dynamic politic that invites its very destruction yet maintains composure of core principles: Direct Action, Voluntary Association, and Mutual Aid.
You may also find some of Öcalan's writings interesting/enlightening.
You might get some better perspective by looking outside the "European" sphere.
You seem to have some similar thoughts to the author of the zine here.. An except:
You may also find some of Öcalan's writings interesting/enlightening.