HexaSnoot

I'm learning that trying to turn a bully into a friend is such grade school shit. It arrests your development, and I want to know about the ways it does. I'm embarrassed I wasted my time thinking of how to talk to liberals who seem set on being right wingers.

I realize that not only should I drop all intentional right wingers out of my social life, I have to in order to develop as a person.

Someone told me that communist reducation camps could reform Nazis, but it took controlling every aspect of their lives and everyone they spoke to in order to reform them. That it cannot happen one-on-one on an interpersonal level.

I do not have the tools to reprogram dedicated right wingers. Even with people who are trying to be leftists, I need them to already be surrounded by other leftists so that I only have to fill one tiny gap at a time in their preexisting knowledge.

The more I learn the more I feel like a new person to politics. I don't think I'll ever have to choose right wingers as potential social circle members ever again. Right now I don't have to drink poisoned water anymore.

I don't think I'm paranoid that people quietly think them. I may not always know when, but I know the sight of my stomach triggers people's insecurities.

One time I saw a woman with a stomach as big as an exercise ball in a crop top, and I've aspired to rock out as shamelessly as she did in her fully exposed stomach ever since.

This matters to me: I don't think she was pregnant. And I feel that means she didn't need a pregnancy as "excuse" to know she's entitled to proudly showing off her belly.

Btw, I think we've got to depict bellies as a sexy part of the body more. Even on abs, imo, a little pudge can look nice.

I'm broke atm(probably for a long time.) I'm not serious about buying anything right now, but the next time I come across money way into the future, I will need to buy stuff. I'm most focused on learning how to buy clothing from OEMs. I will not be buying accessories first thing, but I'm still interested in how to window shop for them to learn how to buy them later on. How do you find single items from OEMs of both, luxury and non-luxury brands?

For those who haven't heard about OEMs, idk much, but I saw both, Chinese manufacturers and customers talk in video shorts about how you can buy things like a genuine Hermes purse for $2. (Idc about Hermes purses, but they stated something important.) From my memory of what the people on social media keep saying: Workers in China start and finish the genuine designer product. Then it's shipped to a different country where they apply the logo... If they apply the logo in Italy, it will say "Made in Italy." If the logo is applied in France, it will say "Made in France." Even if it's all made in China minus the logo. That logo is what you're paying hundred to thousands for. The product alone without the logo is much cheaper. You can buy high quality designer goods for cheap from OEMs.

Tl;dr: People on social media have shared that you can buy logo-less genuine designer clothes and accessories for little money if you buy it straight from original manufacturers in China.

Some of them use it as an excuse to downpunch, to abuse others performing less than them. Like shitty managers. It annoys everyone around them.

Some of them are beautiful people, but they sacrifice themselves trying to go saving people who are full of bullshit and are just stringing them along. Beautiful people who fall for the games of those trying to play God among humans. It annoys the hell out of people who love this latter example of a martyr.

The former example might be the BS asshole stringing along this latter example of another kind of martyr. Along with anyone else naive enough to play the asshole's games.

These are just two examples I've known of. They seem to have a pattern of dialectics. Asshole martyr hanging around with wonderful but naive martyrs. It's almost like the assholes try to pretend they have the nice martyr's qualities, while self projecting everything they're ashamed about on the nice martyr.

Someone who vaxxed me just told me I count as immunocomprimised because I have long covid. They said it means my system is too weak so I need to be vaxxed every 6 months. (6 months is how long my covid vaccine is said to last.)

As a result, my insurance is covering 2 covid vaccines for me this year instead of just one. This is important because a single covid vaccine shot without insurance can cost over $200 in the US.

What is your reasoning for going maskless?

Mine is that a person I live with a lot has been going maskless. When I go out with them, I feel there's no point in wearing a mask if they're not going to. If they catch an illness we're both going to regardless. I've been criticizing people in my head about no one wearing a mask, but I have to admit, now that I've been out without a mask I can see the temptation of things "feeling normal."

It can be super small in a way most people don't understand or have lost touch with. Or anything bigger. The important thing is that it means something to you.

I deal with disabilities. For me being alive and managing basic tasks is something I try to feel pride in. Being here to enjoy watching people around me do things for fun can be a nice feeling. Last night in my dream I painted my nails and I felt pride in my dream. I woke up feeling proud that I have still have that creative instinct after last painting them once maybe 7 years ago. I feel proud of art I dream of. Just because I don't draw it doesn't mean it doesn't exist in my mind, temporarily in my thoughts. I was there before something brilliant my mind had created, and it meant a lot to me.

Watching Guillermo del Toro's 2025 movie Frankenstein made me realize we are all frankensteins who should be proud of our every ability, however limited it is huge that we are alive, and furthermore impressive that we have instincts to live beautifully in any way.

I went through things like growing up underweight for a while and sneaking food that was withheld from me. Those things still affect me. Looking back, one of the worst parts of this was that my caretakers were not poor. We went on vacations around the world each year along with wealthy families(one of them was a millionare family) usually staying in impressive hotels. Yet I was somehow always under the impression that we were desolately poor. I remember a teacher making an embarrassing call in front of the entire class to my childhood caretakers to tell them I needed new clothes. They sold this myth to me that they could not possibly buy me many basic needs, and I believed it more than the proof of these vacations that we were actually well off.

Someone in my current life repeatedly told me I can heat up canned food instead of eating it straight from the can. The idea of taking the step to heat my canned food still feels forgein. If canned food prices weren't through the roof now, I'd try to keep practicing what they told me.

I heard when you're rich enough, everyone wants you for your money. I read wealth can literally change your brain too. (Not posting the article because it was basically an ad for one of the most expensive mental hospitals in the world, and I didn't finish reading it.)

I'm mostly asking this for your judgements and reasoning of how rich our favorite treat-producing celebrities can be before you personally feel they're no longer good people... I'm not sure what I mean by the word "good." At some point they're the CEO of their own empire, right? When does the addiction to being a liberal defending right wing abuse eventually become part of the riches?

If you just want to assure me it's possible that assurance would be nice.

Remember, you don't have to say if you've been hurt or not if you don't want to. That privacy is your right.

I found a beautiful song that immerses me called My Heart Beats For You by D'Leesa. It calms my anxiety with intimacy and helps me be more concious of my loving feelings. I missed feeling like a teenager in love with a love song. What helps you?

I've had a hard time learning about the Silk Road in China. I'm not great at geography. I'm not great at timelines. (For example, I don't remember years of historical events well.) But I am better at learning about individual important people, animals, and goods like sugar. Anything I'm highly interested in.

Aside from sugar, another example is classic 1950's women's wear in America. My love of the style it helps me remember it's association with the nuclear family. After seeing the movie Pleasantville(such an incredible film) with a ton of American 50's wear, I can remember the 50's were a time of segregation too.

Speaking of art helping me learn about history, through watching about this remodeled clock face with breathing holes, I learned how underground railroads that helped people escape slavery would sometimes have hiding places under floorboards. Holes were made in the floor of this church to help them breathe, and they were in patterns made to camouflage them as "decorations."

This is the sort of stuff I like learning with.