I dont really know why im posting this, i guess i just want to be told im not a bad person probably. I've decided I have to give my dog back to the shelter i got him from. He's got minor behavioral problems that could likely be fixed with good enough training, something ive found i dont have the dedication for but really the problem is that i am unable to provide enough exercise for him. He's a border collie/lab mix and i live in a condo; yeah ik, fucking dumb ass mistake. In the end i am simply unwilling/unable to take him to the dog park (where he doesnt get along with any dog or human) and chase him around for the 2 hours minimum he needs, each day, to finally relax somewhat. i shouldve know better, im not a fucking kid, this was so easily avoidable.
i know its ultimately better for him to go back and have a chance to find an owner with a lot of space for him but i just feel like this demonstrates i am not the kind & patient person i thought i was. Not only will i be without human company for the rest of my life but now it feels like even canine companionship is out of the question.
I dunno im probably just catastrophizing. i do that sometimes