Not even sure if this is the right comm to put it but
For some context, I live in an SEA country. Dropped out of high school to take the GED due to really disliking the way schools here conduct their pedagogy, now Im jobless, have a very shaky financial situation, no opportunities, no networking, and no guarantees that I can safely continue my studies abroad. What local educational opportunities I do have I'm not even sure can secure a stable career or have an up-to-date curriculum that doesn't force me into wasting precious time and resources just to learn nothing of value. I have no clue what I should even do at this point beyond just hoping I can get a part-time job and somehow pay the bills while self-teaching skill to become self-employed and earn money that way. And that's assuming the economical and political situation here doesn't worsen and make my situation even worse. I've been feeling so stressed and anxious about all of this that my mental health has deteriorated and I can't find the motivation to brute force my way through self-study and work my way from there.
Genuinely losing my mind here and it feels like there's nothing I can do about it. Other than resent at the rich folks in my country who can afford the best private institutions and safely immigrate to other countries while the rest of us wither and die 