Jobs

So, this is my first job for a well and Pump company, it's a small company, but it's been running 5+ years and is worth over a million, thing is, I'm miserable, this job has had me stressed out so much that I started thinking of switching.

A few months back, in a morning meeting, I can't quite remember the context, but I do remember saying that "this wasn't where I saw myself" which is true, I'm a very techie person doing manual labor, even spent several years in college before getting burnt out doing all the extra shit you need. Thing is my boss latched on to me saying that and kept bringing it up, and recently he wanted me to get a licence with him in public water systems that he would pay for, cool, but I was miserable and didn't want to owe him anything if I left so I said no.

That is when he brought up if I saw this as a career or just a job, now, mind you this is the type of guy that can be spiteful, so I had to make a choice on the spot and either lie to make sure I was still put on jobs or tell the truth and not screw myself out of recommendations, I would like SOMETHING to put on my resume, so I told him it was a job.

Now this morning, I get a text in a group chat that I wasn't needed today, and I kinda felt like he was trying to do the same last week, but me and my coworkers wiggled me out of it each time, I'm sure my coworkers will get me some work, cause they some bros, but it'll be by twisting my bosses arm and if I'm coming in, it'll probably be for necessity.