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hii all! been awhile since my last post. just been feeling very lonely lately, don’t really have any map friends. looking for ppl to chat with, be friendly and chat abt MAP things.

hii all! been awhile since my last post. just been feeling very lonely lately, don’t really have any map friends. looking for ppl to chat with, be friendly and chat abt MAP things.

For better understanding of the situation please read following posts:

1. https://rqd2.net/post/41083
2. https://rqd2.net/post/44043

please note: I will talk about self harm in this post.

And now let's get into the story. The talk which we wanted to have did not happened on the day it was planned because I got sick. I interpret that as a sign that this stuff did too much damage already. But a few days later I was able to go into my project again.

12.3.2025 was the "finale" talk where I should find out what is actually wrong. My two social workers where there, my mom and the guy who manages this stuff and mostly takes the lead. And well, it was a shit show. We talked about my pictures again and some poems I wrote which even were not hard core sexual. On time I wrote in a verse about naked skin against fur but that was it. While the talk and before my mother and I told them more than one time that someone has to tell me which topic is appropriate there and which not. Because I struggle with seeing it by myself very often. But they just did not want to understand. They know I am autistic, they know my diagnoses, they know that stuff but they ignored everything. again.

The leading guy also did not let me and my mother really talk. He always cutted our sentences with his own words.

Again we both told them that I had therapy and all my therapists would disagree with me being a danger. The leader guy disagreed. He also told me that when I would be abusive that others would ask why they(the project) did not do something. He and the two others also did not react when I said that I relapsed because of the way they where treating me. I did selfharm many days. Legs, harms, shoulder, breast. They did not care. Instead they kept putting me and my mother under pressure with "I need to look for help".

Me and my mother told them again that if I see that I could be a danger then I am the first one to look for help. The leader guy did not take that serious. Instead of trying to understand our points he said the same shit over and over. He even told me that it is already very late for me to look for "help" in my state. Wow. Under tears I just said,: "I am no ticking time bomb". The leader guy said that they never told me that. But they did. Just not exactly this sentence. And he began to talk the same stuff over and over again. In the end it was me who stopped the talk. The conclusion of this was then: I have to look for therapy places and stuff like that in a certain time span. Which time span was not sure, we wanted to talk about that next week.

My problem here is that:

-He did not really let me and my mother talk

-He put me under pressure(time span) again

-He did not take us serious

-The social workers just said "yes" and stuff to his ideas like they could not think for theirselves

-He indiractly told me and my mother many times I am a danger

-He did not take my mental struggles serious and ignored everything which I said about my relapsing

-The topic with art was already talked out before (https://rqd2.net/post/41083)

And for your your information: This project is actually for people with mental struggles.

What are your thoughts? Let me know if you want to. And if you think this is the last post...no it is not. It gets even worse. It has a reason why I call it "The Day Before Disaster".

Do you remember that post? https://rqd2.net/post/41083

Shortly expmlamed it's about the fact that the workers from the school I am talked to me, because I drew a sfw couple with the title "And they are both pedos".⁷

After that nothing happened anymore. I also do not draw any nsfw there or use those words. But last week it seemed not to be enough for them.

I do have two social workers for me and they had a talk with me again. Saying that I might should consinder talking with a therapist about my sexuality. I told them that I do not feel the need to talk about it and also asked for the reason why I should. All they told me that it would be an important topic in my age. I was like...wtf? Okay? I tried my best to explain calmly that I don't feel the need and also had therapy around that topic in the past. But they put pressure on me.

A few days later. Today to be exact. We had a conference where one of my social workers were there, my mother, the person who managed the school and the person who helps me in general with finding jobs and stuff like that. At the and me and my mother mentioned what happened and I explained how I felt.

What do you think happened? They told me they have to put this pressure on me because they have legal worries. I told again I already had therapy and they were even wondering why I don't have it anymore. And about the legal worries: Did they tell me which legal worries? No. They just tried to justifice the pressure they put on me. My mother also doesn't understand what's wrong.

The thing is:

• Like I said I do not draw nsfw there and also do not write paraphilias on my art anymore
• I never said things which could bring me in legal trouble(for example saying I want to commit a crime)
• I do not consume illigal media in school
• If I would do something illigal they should maybe...tell me directly what I did?

I feel misunderstood. Tomorrow will be another talk where I try to find out what the hell their problem is.

What do you think? Do you maybe have any advice on how to deal with that situation?

I've been very vocal on YouTube for the past few years as a MAP, and I'm honestly surprised it took this long, but I finally got my account suspended for "child safety" reasons. Their slightly longer reason was: "We have zero tolerance for predatory behavior on YouTube. Content involving the sexualization of minors is not allowed on YouTube."

I must reiterate that all I've done is simply inform people that MAPs don't deserve to be treated with bigotry, have no more choice in their sexuality than anyone else, and are statistically LESS likely to cause harm compared to teleiophile or peer-attracted people when it comes to CSA.

Now, I rebuild and start over. I did submit an appeal, but even in that I was completely open about who I am and my intentions, so I don't think it'll go through. My only regret is not keeping a more up-to-date log of channels and videos that I liked or saved to lists.

UPDATE: As expected, the appeal was denied. MAPs aren't allowed to advocate for themselves on YouTube (or any major platform, honestly).

hello! my name is rune and i selfship with kuruminha from BRchan!

this will be a short scuffed but everything else is in my bio, here are my flags which is what this is mainly for

baii

hello everyone , i hope eberyone doing well

so i am Gunkanjima , i am new to radqueer but not to the para community. i am a radical leftist ( consistent progressivism)

i am both MAP and AAM ( Aoa is from 6 up to 50 ) both gender

i am also TBDL

love peace and kindness

Calling the parabcommunity !

My little friend is a very kind and playfull soul! If he only would think so himself...

He got treaten very bad in the past which made him hate his self even more. My goal is to show him that not everyone one out there is cruel.

Can you maybe write him a message under this post? It can be just kind words or a advice for the future! He is only 11 and I don't want him to feel so lost already.

Those didnt federate a few days ago right? but they're only from one user??

AASTR was my goto for two decades. Nothing came close in terms of depth and breadth of content. It was also openly unashamed of its pedo content.

It's there any site keeping the flame these says? Nifty is pretty good but small and specifically catering to same-sex tastes

from Murder Drones when Khan says "Guys! My daughter is into doors!" but with "maps" :3333

Does anyone know any culture from this world that is that based?

(to those who celebrate it,) happy thanksgiving!!!

let's talk about what we're thankful for!

amy is thankful for her wife. even though she doesn't fully accept or support amy for some things (MAP, etc) yet, she has stuck with amy regardless and loves amy and treats her with respect and compassion.

amy is thnkful for her fellow MAPs, who have given amy a loving community where nobody else would. amy has been accepted with open arms into such a beautiful place filled with the love and joy of childhood.

amy is thankful for the AAMs who give amy hope and remind her that it's ok to be a MAP. their youthful spirits are contagious and help amy to regress to an age where happiness is abundant. also they are hot.

amy is thankful to her parents for bringing amy into this world.

what r u thankful for?

Are cubs okay in this group?

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I have experienced plenty of 'iffy' situations when I was chronologically considered a child. Mom's boyfriends ogling me, being affectionate, asking to see me naked. It's possible that I have been touched in my sleep, but I will never be able to find out. I hate that I can't call myself a CSA victim, because technically nothing happened, that I'm aware of. In a way, I wish something DID happen, so I could at least find some solace in that. But I'm left being a victim who is not even a victim.

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I honestly totally get the nuance to cisharm. I am a Nexus of vessels who exist in my inner world, Mindscape. It's filled with abusers, rapists, murderers, bigots, etc. who gloat and don't want to get better. It's equally filled with danger-seeking victims who get aroused from being harmed and exploited, like eb and flow. This is how I explore my paraphilias. I don't see it as fiction, I see it as strong part of my identity. So in a way I could be discribed as cisharm.

Hello everyone!

I made a new community. <33 It's a place for people who are interested in sports. It can be a spezific kind or/and just body fitness in general!

I personally am very interested in quadrobics and and want to start to learn it again. I do also Yoga sometimes.

For me it was always hard to find a kind of sport with which I feel good while doing it. Also because of bad experiences I had to make in school. Now I try to find things which I enjoy.

The icon and banner from this community are free to use. I found them on Pixabay!

Hello everyone!

I made a new community. <33 It's a place for people who are interested in sports. It can be a spezific kind or/and just body fitness in general!

I personally am very interested in quadrobics and and want to start to learn it again. I do also Yoga sometimes.

For me it was always hard to find a kind of sport with which I feel good while doing it. Also because of bad experiences I had to make in school. Now I try to find things which I enjoy.

The icon and banner from this community are free to use. I found them on Pixabay!

@mapmemes Women can be so harsh 😔😔😔

@zoo Step 1: You can't >:3

@zoo we live in a society

literally 1984 😔

@zoo Where the eggs at?