Uh.. not sure if it only twenties. My life sucked all the way since 5th grade. I only now started to lose weight and talking to people, after years of non-socialization.
Honestly, don't give a shit about any of life hardships but one - my libido is fucking killing me for the past 10 years. I wanna fuck like crazy and yet I'm too stupid to find a girlfriend. Seeing all my friends that have had multiple relationships, have had experience, love, sex, does a number on my self esteem. All other hardships pale in comparison to this one in my head. Even my job, as a deboner, feels way easier than having to deal with constant "god, I wanna fuck" thoughts.
At least my friend was kind enough to take my virginity lol. She's the best.
Welp. Off to my shift, another 16 hour long day of cutting meat from bones.
It did. After the fact I understood what I was missing, what I always wanted. It changed me. First week was great, energy through the roof. Then - ever massive depression and suicidal thoughts that I would never be able to have this again.