hodgepodgin

About 20 minutes ago I got off the phone with my department manager and was told my services are no longer needed. My department head said he wasn’t at liberty to discuss the reason why. I’m an at-will part-time employee for a university and do it as part of my classes. I’ve been working here for about 5 months and my relationships with everyone has been mostly positive, not super outspoken either.

This week I did some brief work in the PD office and must’ve been recognized by someone there. That person likely told the department manager what my past was and a few days later they decided to fire me. This comes only *three days after that, after many months without problems. So: I was suspended from school a few years ago due to legal charges against me, but it was ultimately stripped from my academic record and since I was a youthful offender it was also stripped from the legal record. My parents made sure of it. In court the charges were dropped to an offense (jaywalking) due to plea deal. I was never convicted. However, NONE of this should have been brought up since it is under a sealed record.

I genuinely doubt this is due to my performance at work. We’re somewhat overstaffed and a lot of my tickets are completed in a timely manner. Most of my coworkers like me and it’s not like I’ve stolen anything at work or crashed any company vehicles.

I fucking regret thinking a few years would separate me from my past actions. I thought I was able to move on and grow as a person but it finally caught up. I also wish this was because of funding or whatnot but I kept getting the “I’m not at liberty to say.” So I have to assume it’s because of my past.

Sorry for the paragraphs but I just needed to vent. This is the second time this has happened to me (first being the suspension) and I was actually relying on this job for the summer —i have no summer job lined up.

Sometimes I just don’t want to look at faces. Sometimes not even my own— I have to force myself to meet my own eyes. In public it’s either no eye contact or just a furtive glance. At work I catch myself accidentally drifting my eyes somewhere else like the floor or a random tool bag.

I know we’re all put together differently but this seems to be something a lot of people now have.

WE MADE A REALLY HARSH LAW THAT WILL MAKE YOU NOT HAPPY IF YOU COPY THINGS THAT ARE ON TV LIKE MOVIES AND STUFF. THEN IF YOU LIKE GIVE THOSE COPIES TO OTHER PEOPLE, IT'S NOT COOL

IF YOU DO THIS TOTALLY NOT COOL THING WE WILL HAVE TO LIKE FIND OUT AND THEN BE LIKE "YOU ARE A BAD PERSON" THEN YOU WILL GO TO THE JAIL AND WE ARE GONNA TAKE YOUR MONEY.

Source: Solar Opposites S06E05

I'm an iOS 18.2 user, purelymail user, and Caldav user. For some stupid reason iOS just doesn't support Caldav for me. There doesn't seem to be any apps that do this without integrating ads. Is anyone here using something they recommend or know how to get the native calendar to support Caldav? I try to add a calendar but my mail account isn't recognized, the only things it can add are Notes and Mail.

I have a limited 20Mbps upload speed but 16 TB of storage. I’m kinda just asking if there’s anything I can use it for. I’ll donate one purpose: seeding Anna’s Archive. Not sure on other causes.

I am still amazed that the server is still being actively developed with a thriving player base.

There's a few things I'm not super fond of: quests and NPC interactions are kind of bland and it's sometimes pretty easy to veer off-course from a quest and get lost.

Though, I am enjoying the more balanced leveling system

though to be fair I've been playing for a few days and am already at level 44 so I'm not sure it's super balanced. I am using Ophanim's light orbs to vaporize dungeon bosses which is fun. Currently just having fun leveling up, which contrasts to my last playthrough of getting lost and stuck at a low combat level.

Since I first played Disco Elysium back in 2023-2024, I really wanted to play another game like it. I’ve heard that another game is coming out of Za/Um with a similar art style and world building to DE. However, knowing that Za/Um is owned by scummy people now, I can only anticipate that the game will probably have bad reviews on day 1. What is worse is that it may be the last game out of the studio for another decade.

Ok so before I lose my mind: I am most likely fine. I was willingly in the same room as (maybe) sealed asbestos because I was fulfilling a stupid customer request to activate network access. Why: it’s normalized to ignore this particular asbestos warning and we tell ourselves to simply avoid stirring any dust. However: Asbestos is air borne.. I’m in a state with tight regulations about asbestos yet my university is somehow stingy on not completely removing this shit, just because people are rarely, if ever, in the mechanical rooms. (I have no idea if the asbestos is well sealed or not, but maybe not if the warnings are up… which is crazy because warnings get ignored and how tf is that legal). I thought I was limited exposure but my equally paranoid MD mother has been worrying me about my short-term exposure. It’s been like 3-4 times each 30-60 minutes where I’ll be standing in one spot punching a Cat6 110 block. I’ve occasionally had to pick up the dropped remains with my fingernails and stuff them in a disposable bag too. I know how dirty this room is so I always wash my hands thoroughly. However, what I really didn’t know about asbestos is how easily it sticks around. You can breathe it in even in a still room and it can stick to all of your clothing and cross contaminate shit. My winter jacket was probably the worst offender and it was quite shite to honest so I’ve thrown it out, which I plan to replace with a thrift jacket. I’ve thrown my dirty laundry and formal work clothes into the washing machine and let them do a cycle. I know asbestos can’t really be removed that way but at this point I need to soothe my nerves. I’m kind of just having a breakdown and have vowed to never do any of those tasks again (smartly maybe) despite the relative safeness, probably, of them. However I don’t want to do any permanent shit to my body… especially nothing that puts a countdown on my lungs. I’m keeping myself calm by reminding myself that my exposure was so limited but really I’ve been way too naïve up to now with how easily the universe can kill you in a single breath. I feel I also have to add that I’ve put in writing to my supervisor to address these concerns… especially the concern that these fibers are probably on the bottom of our tool bag… since I am not the first person in this position and the high frequency of our work requests.. (most asbestos is in the wall and harmless in our university, however, sometimes it is exposed. There is only really one place I’ve been that I’ve had to heed this warning.)

Before you ask I have also had breakouts about solder flux VOCs and attic insulation… both of which I never did much of… not even in a hobby sense. My brain is really fuckkked

So, not sure if I’m making myself clear, but I recently just witnessed a female RJ45 jack need to be reterminated since it was only receiving PoE but not data. This is probably because the PoE pairs still function with connectors 1 to 8 reversed. We know this because our cable tester showed each conductor reversed with a reflector plugged in. As in, 1-8 should’ve mapped to 1-8 but instead mapped to 8-1. A coworker of mine pulled the head off and examined the pairs, but each color and stripe matched perfectly.

Not sure what happened here. I think it was probably human error since we encounter that sometimes when repairing work that cable contractors do. However, I could see myself making the same mistake since the pairs were all pushed in correctly.

The situation:

• 6.17.7 (last kernel to not break my speakers, but not in history repos)
• 6.18.3 (installed kernel)
• 6.19-rc4 (fix is apparently present)

I would like to either have kernel-default 6.17.7 or 6.19-rc4 and then lock the package.

I’ve never been a big vegetables person (I’m a young adult) but so far have expanded my pallet quite a bit (beyond just veggies) to stuff like mushrooms, peas(sometimes, in fried rice), lettuce, peppers, tomatoes (used to hate), spinach, eggs (hated scrambled eggs, now make it sunny side up), carrots (still not my favorite), and now celery. I’ve been eating celery for two weeks now and I feel so much better mentally. I used to have some issues with my bowels not moving at all, but that has cleared up. I’ve always had trouble finding a vegetable to eat daily, since I lose appetite in them and they just sit in my fridge. Lettuce used to be my go-to, but I realized I simply hated the taste and texture of it after it sat in the fridge for a day. It usually got damp and soggy over time depending on the leafiness and I never liked the taste. Meanwhile, celery doesn’t really have those issues of becoming damp and tastes sweet/good without anything added to it. Though, I always add PB to make it taste better. Has to be thoroughly washed since it is one of the “dirty” vegetables, though.

Well, anyways, that’s my dull men’s post.