choihanna

It's the same kind of man who hates Twilight, Taylor Swift, BTS. They hate anything that women like and make it their personality even though no one ever asked for their opinion.

They're also the kind to be grown men into super heroes, we don't gaf about your supetheros even if it's ridiculous, let me enjoy Twilight alone damnit

From when I was 10-11 to when I turned 19 I was made to take care of my neuro-divergent brother (ADHD and autistic traits).

When I say take care it's not just making a few meals... I mean being made to bathe him until he was 10 and wipe is ass after he went to the toilet and feed him because my parents didn't want to let him eat by himself because he'd take too long...

I wouldn't mind doing it when he was little because it's understandable that a baby/toddler needs those things done, but when he was a prepubescent child and on top of having to do everything for him I had to deal with his constant ADHD (he likes to make you angry for fun) and also having to do the normal house chores (keeping the house clean, it's not a small house), and also on top of that I had to deal with my own adolescence, highschool drama and the stupid people in class. So as a result I started to do the same things my mom did to me when I was a kid.

My mom used to hit me very badly as a kid despite the fact that I was actually very well behaved. They hit me when I committed mistakes like spilling a glass of water. So when my brother was being annoying or committed mistakes I hit him and insult him like my mom did.

He always laughed when I did it, so it didn't make me feel regret afterwards.

Now as an adult (21) living away from my family I feel so terrible about how my brother got raised... My parents didn't give him any attention, then the person parenting him is his abusive sister that is always angry and hits him and insults him.

I really regret the way I handled it, someone else would have probably handled it better, but now the harm is done. My brother seems fine but I fear in the future he won't be and it's all our fault because the people around him failed him.

This has happened too many times to be a coincidence and it's always men from Taimi that already know I'm trans, it's never the men from Hinge whom I date stealth.

They invite you over everything seems nice until you tell them you don't want sex. I'm asexual, and this leads to some agressive reaction from him always followed by "you're too young and immature you can't be asexual" with tarnsphobic remarks. ALWAYS the same sentences.

This last time this guy yelled at me saying "You think I'm stupid? You're asexual but post pictures of your fat ass in your profile" I'm not joking he literally said that shit 💀

Mind you they're not pictures of my butt, I'm fully clothed, this is an example:

It's funny how I never get these reactions from men that I'm having a date with while stealth, not even when I tell them later. They either don't care or just tell me they're not interested in trans people, but the guys who are from Taimi seem to be the most transphobic and deranged.

My only hobby is shopping, even if I can't afford it I prefer to not eat if I can get new shoes, jewelry, clothes... I don't understand how I ended up like this.

As a kid I was the complete opposite... I didn't demand any toys. But I guess my teenage years were too traumatic causing me so much self-consciousness about myself.

Now I have a very high maintenance appearance, clothes, jewelry and stilettos make me feel better about that void. The compliments I receive on the street feed this fake ego I'm building.

I've become so selfish I think I care more about getting what I want more than I care about people. People are disgusting and evil and deserve all the bad that happens to them, but a nice dress? There's nothing wrong it could do.

The only reason I have friends is so that they praise my appearance. There's no point in looking good if no one notices it.

They'll be pretending that they're so interested in knowing you but once you tell them their mask falls off.

I hate that most guys are hypersexual, chill, be a normal person and not a wild animal for some time.

I spent years under a strong depression when I was in High School, I didn't take care of my appearance and that made people think I was a lesbian for some reason.

Now I'm in uni and living my best life.

I feel confident again and I get compliments on the street everyday.

I'm still very prone to depression but it isn't as strong as before, at least enough so I can take care of myself.

There was a period where I took care of my physical appearance but not my health which really affected me specially because it made people think I was fine at that point. But they were very serious issues.

I'm healthy and happy like when I was 13 and I can only regret that I allowed bullying to take that away from me.

All my life I've been led to believe that unattractive men will treat you better or are more genuine. Mainly movies like The Hunchback of Notre-Dame and many others where they depict a pretty girl with an unattractive male partner/protagonist where she falls in love with him because of the way he treats her.

Who would have said life is not like in movies? But for some reason we will still have this stereotype in mind.

The truth is I've been treated worse by guys who were unattractive in comparison to guys who are attractive. Specially when they make you feel bad about yourself which never happened to me with an attractive guy. They never made me feel unattractive or lesser than them.

Nerdy guys have been the worst in my experience, no flowers, no gentleman behavior or trying to be interested in your interests. Many awkward silences and only interacting with you for sex.

This is just a tendency, not a rule. Just never believe that someone's appearance is related to their personality (even if it's in a positive way).

I'm in northern Spain and have to take a train to Madrid to get to a flight. But I arrive to the train station too late at 11:40 so booking is not an option since most places check in are at 12:00 and I'd probably not get in time.

Would it be too dangerous to stay up all night on the street?

So before anything I'm a trans woman (20), I do not claim to be a real woman or try to put women down or mock them. So please I'd like to ask you to abstein from comments about it because I already know what I am.

I've been trying dating apps because they feel safer than just dating people from your daily life when I was a teen (friends and classmates).

I do have a note on my profile that notifies these men about what I am before they can chat with me, some unmatch, others will say bad stuff before leaving, but another big amount stay. Everything goes fine we chat for a long time, we have a few dates, but in the end they all seem to lose interest at some point.

It just makes me so tired of meeting a lot of different men every month. I don't understand what they want.